i am upset for the silliest of reasons. and i cringe at that thought. i feel that i could do with an entire day of drawing and shooting and lazing around and writing letters to solicit funds (sounds weird), hahaa, but i realised that unless i get a shirt and a pants, i cant. and i need to change the sizes of the teeshirts that i bought today because i think those that i bought are too big. but they are exactly the same size that i bought for my bro the last time. sighs.

i feel like journalling but not in the mood to write. i feel like drawing but i just cant draw something that makes me smile. i want to do stuff that makes me smile like going to raffles place and sit by the not so stinky river and think some stupid things and then go for some icecream or some sort alone. or hang out at the gao xing jian exhibition. but i cant cos i dont know what to wear for rongchang and doreen's wedding. it sounds really bimbotic but i dont want to look the ugliest there. whats wrong with jeans. theres nothing wrong with jeans except that it is inappropriate for a wedding apparently. whats with girls and skirts? i dont have a skirt and i am fine with it. not that i will wear one willingly anway.

was ranting to juan. i was telling her if i should get married, its gonna be by the beach and everyone can come in their berms and shorts and tanktops and sundresses and not care about having to spend money and buy clothes to wear. and her answer was stupid. i am not so concerned as to whether i will get married because its really not a big deal now that i think about it but what am i gonna wear. sigh.

hahaha. it makes me laugh knowing that i get bothered by little stuff like that. i should have went shopping with minny yesterday/today, whatever, 8dec. i am sure she could pick out somehing for me. i really hate the cardigan that i bought but its really too late to do anything because i had it washed already. sob sob. not that i could get a refund. but cardigans are really not my thing.. if you wanna see a human ba-chang (rice dumpling), i will show you the pic if you treat me to that raved resturant featured in 8days. i am just gonna get a shirt i think. i am wearing a teeshirt for the church part. i am sure its fine la. i really got no more money in my bank and i still owe min slightly less than a hundred bucks.

can grey go with brown? actually it does work theoretically but i guess the problem with my clothes is actually the texture. and i hate white shirts because they yellow easily. boo! oh.. i have a blue top! um hmm.. whatever. hahaha. if it works then i could just meet a friend for lunch or something..

anyways, i think ian's getting enlisted today, 9dec. my bro's birthday. haha. to ian - jiayou! praying that the Lord keeps ya safe and in good health. and that you spread the Christlike joy to those elitist people in your batch! haha.
and to my bro - happy birthday la.

(: