YES I LOVE ALETHEA ENG XIU YING!!!!




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i went to the wake of someone i know nothing about. death can come so suddenly. i am not afraid of death but i am afraid of losing someone i love. grandma's stay in hospital had been extended. i am very scared. i think she's fine though.

i dont mind staying an extended period in cambodia if i am not needed for church camp. i want to make the most out of the air ticket. i want to go to takeo to see see look look again. i want to go see angkor wat. i dont know why i want to go see ang kor wat. but i think theres no real significance.

stupid people are quite hard to xiang chu. i am talking about myself.

i think the campsite stench doesnt get away too easily.. sigh. i stink. ):

lalalaa.
kinda excited now.

1. i finished a 'project'. woohoohoo. qi was just sharing about her painting and now i am sewing. woohoo. stuff like that always sounds good.
2. we got a new heater at home!! the water heater had been leaking so we replaced it!
3. the cheesecake crust taste awesome! i eat it like a cookie! haha.

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i know i just blogged. but in the couple of tens of minutes, theres just so many issues that cropped up.
1. why do chinese have to learn english when they represent the majority of the population. why is the english speaking world not learning chinese when they want to go to china? the marginalisation of the chinese language doesnt just happen in ang-moh speaking singaporean schools.
2. define imperialism. i cant go on the essay without talking about imperialism.
3. ms tang just asked me about something i really might want to do. PKH. for one month. i know she looked for me at last resort. but i want to do it. sigh. i kinda wanna miss a certain camp in june but i dont wanna miss the wedding.
4. mr yeo messaged me about something very weird. its just too fast and too unfair aint it? not unfair to me. its more than fair to me, but unfair to a lot of people who has been slogging their guts out for their passion.

whatever.

sounds really stupid, but 1 checkbox determines whether i can go online on msn. working from mantou. but i have been working all day and there is no progress. but i am thankful that i am getting started. i hope i can finish the first draft of What does Opium tell us about Imperial Rule and the Imperial Experience in British Southeast Asia? by this weekend. so i can start on my classroom management essay on monday. have to prepare for the tutorial with dr hack on monday as well. sigh. theres so many things to do and i havent even given a thought to my academic discourse essay. i have totally no clue about it. today's friday. its a peaceful friday. theres ministry thingy today at church. but min got us out of it. they are sending deb off today. but i just want a peaceful friday. fridays are hardly this peaceful. and i am so thankful. at grandma's house now. the only things i miss while i am at grandma's house are my bible and the unfinished cheesecake at home. i have yet to buy the whipped cream to complete the ingredients neccessary for it. heys. just realised something. aunty k wants us to do our QT from the lent booklet by bible society. guess where's mine? mine's still at bible society with priscilla with my pay. but i do have the entire soft copy in my computer. woohoohoo.. i dont even need the bible. by the way, i can go online which means i can use the online bible. but i do miss my bible. hahaa. the availability of God's Word in every language, format that one can understand and appreciate.. thats the mission of BSS.

last week's history tutorial.. about which heritage area to preserve, i am so glad that dr hack didnt ask me any questions. because i totally didnt prepare for it. i have no idea that the heritage areas are so rich in history. i guess we miss out important stuff most of the time. we are such lousy people. i live in the heart of little india, not me, my grandma, but i totally dont know where is the chinese temple man! haha. i didnt do my readings for tuesday's academic discourse and dr tan was really pissed off i guess. wednesday i was so tired. we got scolding from dr kong for not putting in effort for our presentation. it was not graded. and i didnt see the point of a presentation, much less group work. i think they just enjoy making us present and do group work without much basis. i hate it. but i do enjoy learning about individual differences maybe because i had a chance to help out at ARC and that really opened my eyes to alot of things i missed out before. each time i attend that class, i would think of the girl who made me her slave, assistant and personal helper. haha. i was late for school on tuesday. it was kinda terrible. my schoolmates' quite cool. we were supposed to be doing group project and stuff, but they let me sleep and hug their warm water bottle and jacket. school is just a bundle of mess. its kinda bad. i was watching the lame teevee show about fashion design students by the superstars. it just reminded me so much about TP since it was shot in the adm studios. i miss the purple windows. right now, my classes only take place on the ground level or level 2, theres not much windows to look out of, theres no scenery at all. i miss our old studio space. i faced the swimming pool. hahha. i am unhappy because i miss stuff of the old place. but i am uber thankful because God has shown so much grace in the new place. its really awesome, the friends that He has given me since i left secondary school. i forgot and dont want to remember my secondary school. sounds really ungrateful, but its one bit of the past that i would like to forget but i do not wish i have not been through it.

i took out the stitches from my mouth. haha. i can open my mouth real big now. but theres still a little hole at the last molar from the gums. i guess that's inevitable. just waiting for it to heal and hope it heals well. i was late for my appointment and i knew i had to wait a long time cos of that. but haha. the guy before me had some business deals to discuss over the phone and i reckon my dentist got impatient, therefore he whisked me into the other room and got the stitches removed in a couple of minutes. i went to the library to read comics after that. hahaa. then i went shopping at the supermarket.

i have been typing the entire day but i have yet to type this much of stuff for my essay. maybe thats why i am typing so much here. i am sorry if i bore you. but i am really glad that today is a peaceful friday. i didnt have to send a single sms, picked up a single call from my mobile or talk to anyone on msn. i really dislike being out of my house lately when i am at home.

praying still for some of my friends, not from church, who didnt get their heart's desire for A levels. NIE wasnt my first choice. in fact, it was my last. i only made 2 choices. haha. but i guess i can understand the feeling of not getting what one wants. but i think its good that i can rest assure that God's way are higher than mine.

it was kinda funny on wednesday night. i slept like really early, say 9. then ernest called at 9.30 asking something on behalf of aunty suet fong. in my daze, i heard him quite vaguely but i knew i said yes as well as i asked whether it was morning or night. i thought it was quite funny. just now my grandpa came out of his room and looked very angry.. like why wasnt i home yet. i had to appease him by saying i am going to stay here tonight. i wonder why not. i am treated like a little princess when i stay at my grandparent's house. except that i have to sleep on the floor. but hey, they bought the mattress for me. my uncle bought a huge bottle of the moisturiser for me, the one that i like. and i get new lip balm. hahahaha.

back to opium essay.

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