why is it just because you disagree then its wrong? we are so judgmental. i am. we all are, somehow. have i said before, i am kinda.. materialistic. not that i value material things, but i do choose my stuff quite selectively. for example.. i have many sketchbooks that cost 20-30 dollars. blank sheets cost cents per page.. but good design, good music, good artistes are worth the money. i indulge once in a while, bigger sketchbooks, new colour pencils, and while i indulge, i still fulfill my responsibilities to my family, my accountability to God and so whats wrong? just because we disagree.

anyway, i was telling my mom whether daddy could drive me to the airport earlier.. like 4.30 or sth. i am meeting shuling at 5. i just want some time to muse over things over a cuppa coffee. haha. mom asked me why i wanna sit alone. you cant your mom you enjoy being a loner. haha. she dont believe in being alone. haha. but i guess shes gonna do that for me!

i cant fit everything into my bag. and i think my bag has exceeded the weight limit. it would be fine if aunty yvonne didnt have those stuff we have to bring up. no, i am not complaining. its just that i am annoyed that things didnt go as planned. but oh well, i get to buy a new shoebag along with a new towel and new trackpants. ok. right after i typed that i decided that i will not buy a new towel. i dont use towels, why do i bring them then. hahaha.

today's worship is awesome. thank you God. rach, well done! and the kids were just so cool. its like its really a youth worship. nat played awesome drums. i was just looking at him cos if the pianist fails to attract my attention, i will look at the drummer. haha. anyways, he looks so 乐在其中. just simply enjoying the presence of the God he worships. i had fun at cell too. we are such a weird group. we had fun today i think. we learnt about prayers. and rach is so funny. we wanted to pray according to the steps, to allow them to understand what it means to enter God's temple, first with thanksgiving, then praise, then knowing that we have sinned and then petitioning and interceding. but she didnt really get all the steps right then minny said she will pray first but rach was like.. no way, i am already halfway there. haha. hilarious. i really liked the way grace responded today. cos she had to serve in main, so she left first. but i havent heard her prayer requests so i asked her online. she shared and she asked for the other requests as well so that she could pray for them. i think thats a very grownup thing and its really a joy to hear that. anyway, tim prayed for me in YE. and he asked me to go up as well as shirley's good friends to go up too. but only rach and ben stood up that moment. haha. so they said i had only that many good friends.. but its really cool to have my loved ones praying for me. hehehe. then i prayed for juan, sarah and gerald. it was funny too.

i was so distracted during main. tim's on my left and ian's on the right. minny, david, sarah and yanleen were behind. we were passing notes. and laughing. tim drew on my hand and its still there. we were having a good time at the wrong time. but it was fun. uncle benson and the kua family blessed us wth money for the trip. dora and some of the queenstown cell blessed us with prayers. and aunty georgin handed us a number we can turn to in cambodia. its awesome, all these people and more.

i carried thad for the last time in six weeks. i am gonna miss the thams. they are sucha cute family.

i am kinda sleepy. nites!
last post until i get to some internet stuff in phomn pehn.

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