for a moment, the problem bugging me is not where my hottie from school hangs out in. but how come aunty elma is coming to cambodia with us. i have nothing against her. shes a nice old lady but i hate it when people use their seniority, ie, age to put people down. whatever la.

i should have gone out this evening. since mummy is not home and i dont have to think of a excuse not to have dinner with her. but i really dont know where to go. i dont wanna impose on the lokes by inviting myself to dinner with them, then again, uncle pakchee asked if i wanted to join them. i am sure they will like some family time.

the love of my life, thaddy is sick again. my heart aches for this baby. poor little fellow. just last week, we were hanging out at the manhatten fish market for dinner, playing peekaboo, and this week, hes missing out on church. but i am sure the Lord who created him will provide for him and his family. i trust in the Lord's faithfulness.

this couple of years as i am growing up, i am beginning to get fearful of many things. my grandparents are getting on in years, and i love them soo much. the things i cannot let go are probably my family. you can take away my camera, my money, but i wont allow you to take away my family. strangely, i dont miss my family much when i am away though i do think of them.

i am secretly, if not openly envious of people like ser, jer, lin and friends. they hang out together, going to kluang together and all that. i pray for friends like that, a bit crazy and wonky, but you know they are there when the world crashes. oh well..

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