i finished reading all 84 pages of archives for a website. now i am bored.
i am very busy. at the same time, i feel very restless, which explains the frequent boliao posting.

but i am kinda glad. hmm. i mean really really glad that i finished the BSS stuff. phew.

this chinese new year hols have lousy teevee show. i am not sure about cable but i speak for free-to-air teevee.

i am not very well-to-do. just average, middle class. i dont want people to think that i need help. because i am satisfied with the way i live. what about those lesser off? how do they want people to look at them? perhaps they want people to see that as their lifestyle, perhaps they dont need anything more. why are we looking at how people live their lives and decide that they need help. wouldnt they know better? like people with special needs, perhaps they are comfortable with their lives, they dont need us to pity them. they probably need us to understand and accept.

aiyaya.

bad teevee shows.

i like the subway at raffles city. and the sistic website cheated me. boo!

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i've been blogging out of nothing lately. cos i am bored stiff. went to my granduncle's house. heard a little more history about my grandmother. she was a poor woman. but now, she has 4 kids, 5 grandchildren who really loves her and cares for her. ditto for grandpa. its the same kids and grandchildren. i 'baoed' my first chinese new year red packets. seems old enough to give some. hahaa. (:

life is never really fair. God is not fair either. but its kinda in our favor aint it?


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i study history. something like that. i read stuff about Siam, ancient China, Europe... but somehow i dont find the pre 1819 singapore exciting. is there something wrong with me? haha.

we are learning about each other's history. mine is entitled MY GRANDMOTHER. quite a half hearted thing. cos my grandmama didnt remember much and i didnt want to probe much. she didnt have it easy back then.

been staying at home a lot lately. such a good rest. i like.

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theres two sides to humanity. things are unequal. sometimes i dont know how to handle it. whats more important? being righteous or sympathetic?

why do i give myself so much to think about for cny hol.

today is good hol day. i finished min's card! hehee.

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i finally booked the ticket online for the last night of taipan jin. not sure of the translation. but i am sure its gonna be good. and for the first time i am watching theater alone. i got the student's concession. not too ex. 30 dollars. but i am a bit screwed about the patron's bit. i used my uncle's credit card to get the tickets. but i have the student pass to get the concession.

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moi uncle dont mind picking the ticket for me. i handed him the money i got from my red packet the moment my aunty left. i am sorry for that man. i hardly open my angpao before cny ends.

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i dont do surveys. maybe i do. sometimes i dont have the mood.

i think my past is catching up on me. for all the times i've been mean and arrogant. its really catching up on me. i am kinda scared. whats with all these people who calls you after you have long deleted their numbers, forgot their faces and never intend to meet up again.

i wished that night we were good campers and stayed in our tents instead. i dont like breaking rules. if lightouts is 11, i will stay in at 11. i understand why rules are in place. i just buay tahan the cannot wear slippers rule in school. and the pants and not jeans rule.

anyway, this figures why i wanted to change my number. but the new numbers at the singtel shop didnt seem too easy to remember, so i am stuck with the old one. hmm.mm. got my uncle's old phone. he wanted a new one so i helped him buy one with my phone upgrade. i didnt have to pay a cent, but from today onwards, i am to pay my own bills.

one more bill.

sigh.

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i hadnt had a decent meal for the day and i cant think straight. i woke up at 9plus, ate some cracker then thats all for a holiday eve eve friday. sounds a little tragic, but i am too keen to finish my work and that leaves no time for meal. then they have to edit the whole damn thing and i have to do that whole damn thing again. cant they make up their mind. i took a cab to bible society and the uncle had to stop at every traffic light. but i wouldnt want to lose my temper at him cos it aint his fault. no temper losing today even when james said strange things and i couldnt understand. no point losing temper. thank God for the patience. there was this morning when i was fasting and the first song on my ipod was 'hungry'. it made me realise that being hungry for the Lord means you are never going to starve. i dont think i got that point across clearly. but it doesnt really matter. someday its just gonna dawn upon you. i've been feeling soo tired lately. like i never want to wake up but i have to cos theres stuff to do. the break's gonna be crazy. anyway, i walked down to chinatown today cos the weather was good. i had wanted subway. but i decided that subway was too costly for me after meatballs and nydc yesterday. yea. hedges is having a stall at chinatown. pop over to say hi. hahaa. whos gonna buy 138dollars magnetic bracelet. hahaha. but its kinda nice walking around with a friend. like i said, heehee friends have grown up. the four of us got accquainted at 14. we are 21 now. its a long long time. when we made it past 1 year, we looked forward to a little more. i cant believe we are giges for 7 years already. but maybe we can drop the name. sounds a little cheesy.

stuff to do during cny break:
reality therapy - glasser
individual differences - interview and analysis
bible society - lent booklet - ahh.. this one i have something to say. glacing through those devotions gives me new insights. hmm.mm. how did we treat the son?
hmm.mm.
ICT - gonna get mew to teach me photoshop. hahaa. need to do some brainstorming. i hated it when dr williams said that dont do too much thinking, just learn the skill. i dont hate him per se, but i always value the thinking behind the product.
prostituition - heehee. i am writing an essay on this one. my stand is, it was good. hmm. no, i dont need counselling.

think thats about it. been wanting to do some stuff for too long.

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i have a lot of pent-up anger. i have to first apologize to yanhui for splashing her with water in the morn today. she's been so gracious about it. thanks (wo)man!

group projects are like funerals. they take the life of me. they suck out the last bit of my breath. my hair is falling like crazy cos i am feeling so immensely stressed. I HATE GROUP PROJECT. how many times have i said it? i dont hate the people. i mean, this group, i have totally absolutely nothing against. we have our differences. i dont like compromising. i dont like changing my schedule because you cant make it. i hate it when we dont accomplish anything in the time we do. i dont like having to accomodate to people and having to look immensely happy about it. i hate the fact that i stayed in the library till five today to do ALL my research for my 10 day break only to have to go back the next day. i hate the fact that i have to share my breathing space with someone else. i bet you think the same way. i have nothing against the people really. i love people. in a strange kind of way. i love people who are far away, as in dont invade my personal space. i need space to breathe. my nose has been blocked. i need more fresh air.

sexy change*

anyway, we did pretty well for our tutorial presentation today. in the earlier lesson - 1030-1130, dr wang said - i dont remember my students' name well. then between 1330-1430, he said this: .. as SHIRLEY has mentioned.. hehhee. the world was shocked that he knows my name. anyways, its either i did really badly for my exams last year or i have been scribbling rubbish too much during his class lately. i drew an ultimate tragedy today. i was feeling really frustrated during his class today that i felt that i couldnt listen but i was still writing incessantly on my notes. i kept spelling wrongly today. i hardly make a correction on my paper. today i cant spell exaggeration. i tried like three times. i gave up. a man hangs himself. under his shelter is a thunderstorm, lightning and all. coming down hard on his shelter is a big heavy elephant. under him is a big pin, screaming of tetanus. in front of is a gun, waiting to shoot. he is bound to die. poor man.

looking at the way primary school teachers will be at nie. i have decided that, if possible, i will home school my kids for the first 12 years of their lives. no way am i going to let those ' ' touch my kids.

i am insulted. this is our conversation:
[19:45] Starx: there's bit of ambiguity in 10 and 12
[19:45] shirley: maybe you guys can change then email me?
[19:46] Starx: ic, cos cailing needs e questions tml
[19:46] shirley: you guys can make the decision?
[19:46] shirley: i already added in my part..
[19:46] shirley: so i think its fine if you guys change..
[19:46] shirley: (:
[19:46] Starx: but i think all e questions are from me n cai ling
[19:46] shirley: i put in mine too
[19:47] Starx: oh, den maybe all our questions are abt e same

if the questions are from you, then how come you cannot understand it? what kind of credit do you want? i'll give it to you. go away la! how many interview questions can we have?

怪物，走开！

sometimes i dont know why people like to make their problem mine. if you are reading this, it means its not you. cos i dont let people i dont like a lot read my blog.

think my schoolmates dont read my blog. not that i told them before.
if you are my schoolmate from NIE. shoo. not the right place for you.

sometimes i think its ironic that a 21 year old university student is afraid of going to school and that 21 year old will grow to be a 24 year old telling kiddos that school is fun and there is nothing to be scared of.

MINNY! i think the people i work with all have ASD. they are so darn inflexible la! sometimes i wonder is it my own stupidity.

history people rocks. tomorrow is the tutorial and we met up for 15 min today. see the difference. i need to bitch to someone.

i am starting to lose my patience.

i havent done my reader response yet. ahh.. how?

i kinda wanted to go for the SJC revelation thing. cos the last time i went, i was really encouraged by the worship and especially the sharing. when you are at your lowest and you know what your God can do, it really gave me the courage to pick up the bits of my life and keep moving in the direction of God.

but i am leading BS tomorrow. so i guess its not possible. not even a tinge of possiblity.

i went to BSS today. and i had a lot of fun. i got to make a new friend. shes so nice!


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my home computer crashed. and i cant surf the net. staying over at my grandparent's place to use their wireless. heehee. all is well. mostly. i cant get into msn at all. its kinda troubling. work has been piling and piling and piling. still taking joy in many that i do. thank God for His grace that brought me through many many days. sometimes i am scared of stuff. i am having problems with groupwork. its kinda my problem. spent alot of time talking about it and trying to come up with solutions.

my respect for dr wang has been raised up to a higher level.

i am d*** tired.

i feel sorta bad that i havent been meeting dajie for lunch in school. work has started piling even before i am ready for school!

whooooaaa!

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i know i say this too often. but i will say it again.

maybe not.

later i get slapped right left centre when its not meant to be made an issue anyway.

btw, i am keen to watch THE LAST NIGHT OF TAIPAN JIN <金大班的最后一夜>.

its chinese theatre. with english subtitles.

yanhui, my classmate wants to watch broadway beng.

but if i have to pay, i am not too keen on slapstick.

my uncle never ceases to amaze me.

the showerhead at grandma/pa house has this mist function.

it feels like standing in a shower, as in rain.

minus the dirt, dust, wet socks, thunder and lightning.

anyway. goodbye forever. hehehee.

(:

i've been wanting to type what's up in my life for the past week. but its a bit of effort to be typing and sneezing at the same time.

sunday. sunday is church day. i really enjoyed myself in YE that day. as in ALOT even though i didnt have much sleep the night before. it was one rare occasion that i was so happy lately. had a bit of a disagreement with my mom in the night. stared at my computer until 4am where i decided that i should be sleeping. woke up at 5am to get ready for school. i thought i could reach school much earlier where i could be doing my stuff. i ended being in school at my usual time. dr hack let us off an hour earlier. did the poster stuff in the canteen then rushed for the next lecture. then i rushed off to print the card needed for recruitment. as usual, the printer is very kind to rush stuff for me. it was raining when i left and i wanted so badly to get to church asap. kinda praying for a cab but it was apparently quite tough to get a cab on a rainy day. braved the rain to get to the mrt. reached church and then aunty k was there though it was an off day for pastoral stuff. finished the BB poster. called reen to see if she could help send it for print. but she cant. but john could. so john came down to church to pick up stuff from me and to collect stuff from the printer. it was indeed a blessing. i was less kanchiong and could even go for my lunch at 3pm. john came and then i left for school. i ended up being late for school. it was mass lecture and the lecturer was speaking in this low, hush tone which added to the kanchiongness. it was a big LT so it was kinda drama when i entered with my big bag, papers and red umbrella. it was shirley in my most unglam. thank God i was wasnt the latest. wanted to go home to sleep but mum insisted that i had dinner. after which ms soh and ms lee called me out for coffee. cant possibly pass the chance of meeting them so i went. it was coffee at its best. haha. tuesday was public hol and since i cant do anything without my tablet, i slept in. supposed to meet min and tim and friends to do their wedding stuff. being very nice, tim came to my house to pick me up since it was raining very heavily. we picked min and faye and then they went trooping over to their friend, andrew's house to wake him up. we ended staying at andrew's place to do the wedding stuff. it was a lovely house. so cosy and nice. i almost fell asleep on the sofa with the wind blowing in my face. haha. it was a lot of fun doing the wedding stuff. they are a bunch of very funny people. tim and min sent me home. and the really cool thing about them is that they sent me messages regarding the same thing within minutes. one on the mobile, the other on msn. (: then i remembered what i forgotten during the day. the recruitment stuff is not all finished. i stayed up till 3 plus to finish them. packed my notebook into my bag which is a big mistake cos i dont have to bring it on wednesdays. arggh!! reached QPS at 7. met reen and chang. then mounted the posters. it was not bad. not bad at all. pretty pleased with it (: then did the noticeboard a bit. removed the clutter. i think clutter is no good. ran to church to pass aunty k the stuff to photocopy then i rushed to school. took the wrong side of the mrt. reached boon lay quite late. saw 2 extremely long queues. thinking that one was 199 and the other 179, i decided to walk till the end to get a cab. turned out both were 179 queues. ended in class late. me and khai were practically running all the way to class. so embarassing again. wanted to ask uncle william for meatballs at ikea but he had meeting with moses. so less impt people and thing (ie. me and eating meatballs) had to be put on hold. reached home and fell asleep promptly at 8. i missed 2 calls and 4 messages. which probably meant i missed one coffee outing. ): but i cant help it. i was just too tired.

God has been really really good to the GB. our recruitment saw a number of 16 girls signing up with us. i am very very excited cos i have never seen this many girls. must really pray for them. and the boys too. this is a new year. i like new years and birthdays because it means new start.

i've been wanting to say this to minny. it sounds a little mushy to say in real life so here goes:
MINNY! it is really really a joy to be part of your wedding by doing your card. i really enjoy doing it. the two of you have been so awesome in my life and you know it! its not everyday that i get to do wedding cards and seriously, yours is the first! so its really cool for me too!

(:

on a side note.
and i reckon i am not a very nice person to work with sometimes. i am quite stubborn and headstrong and i dont like compromising. not that i am very good but there are things i insist on. like why did i choose to make a trip down to QPS just to mount 2 posters. its not that other people cant do it but it just that i feel that i need to do it by myself. i am quite weird in a way. like i would insist the font size be the same for the entire ppt presentation if i have to do one. all the lines i draw must be straight. all my paper must not be crumpled. its just something i cannot help. i am strange! hahaa.

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i hate blowing green stuff out of my nose. bleh.

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todays biggest blessing came in the form of a mr john chee.
thank you so much for taking that load of my shoulder man!

praise God!

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my mind is in a total blank. i have no idea how to layout the photo thing.
nothing came out of the three hours i spent in front of the computer.
its gonna be a mad mad day today.

lets see how i will survive it.

haha.

i am turning quite cynical and critical and annoying though i have yet to really annoyed anyone yet. cynical like the ass in animal farm. which by the way have yet to be returned to me by a certain mr hedges leo.

sigh.

today we had meeting in church. the girls are so brave. they saved the fishes! hahhaa. they are really cute. we spent time in prayer today. it feels real. real in which sense, i cant describe.

i have made amendments for the pic for minny.
cant think of any ideas for the BB/GB recruitment at all.
Lent. at ground zero still.
personal projects are all on hold.


i think given a chance now, i would be a better literature student than i was before. but, correct me if i am wrong, you have to be sorta judgemental to do literature. because you judge what the author says just by the few sentences you read without considering the premises, the emotions, even the logic behind what is written. its just based on what you read. anyways, i am enjoying sophie's world now. its a delightful read. but its not really fiction. cos of all the philosophy bits. its good past time on the mrt/bus. i dont read at home. haha. i want the accidental by ali smith.

perhaps i am getting a lot more defensive lately.


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mz sir, originally uploaded by shirley_s.

dearest mz sir.
we havent meet yet and the year has passed us by already. so while waiting for you and cy to be less busy, i will share your face with the world on the WWW. i know for the last few meetings cy, you and i had were in holland v, but can i ask that we have it in holland v again? cos i wanna go to nydc. hahha. happy new year anyway!


i am having problems around people again. so its kinda stressful to be in school or in cell. i tend to take the easier way out. i shared about paying for a youth/child's mission trip with my cell and they asked if they were eligible. erm. NO. we were either working before or are working right now. what i mean is a kid with the heart for mission. and i do have someone in mind already. so lets see if that someone would ask me.

i forgot what i really wanted to say on this entry. erm.

oh. i was thinking about my friends lately. and i realised that i am struggling to find someone who shares similar vision as myself. loves God. loves drawing/illustration/design/photography/etc. someone who loves that lifestyle. i am thankful for that one friend who is very supportive of my /design works/ unfortunately shes not a Christian. but i am very very thankful for her. she has kept me sane from the day we graduated till now. i am dying alive in NIE.

God has been extremely comforting lately. i really miss TPDes alot. and i dont know why. perhaps i miss the /lifestyle/ maybe i miss the attitude we took to our work. maybe i miss the /randomness/ of things. i miss the /hey, lets go shooting leh/ or the /lets go to the canteen/ i miss looking at photos all day. hanging out in the library and crying in some corner cos i was so touched by the photojournalist's view of the war. browsing through graphic design/advertising stuff all day. hiding from madam chan. skipping hon's class and ended up crapping that semester that brought the entire GPA down 2 notches. i miss looking for peiqi in the dustbin because mr ronald cant find her beside me. i miss sitting outside fourth floor staffroom with sam talking about going to sri lanka to build houses. and so i really miss design school. and God is so gracious. i saw jerry today. managed to talk a little. its just really nice. i dont know why. hardly talked to jerry in the past. but jerry is talented. and really creative. his work is cool. but hes tired. do we all get tired after we graduate? so sad. but it was nice meeting up. all the best jerry!

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sometimes i wonder, do we actually have a choice of not going for cell?

i saw peiqi online.

so i messaged her.

shirley: lets go vietnam!

shirley: in june?!

shirley: dont go shopping and stuff

qioo: nt june qioo: oct?

qioo: cos june is raining season

qioo: oct - mar is a beta choice :)

she sounded like she's already there. i dont think we will make it there this year. but its nice enough to think about it and all that. we went ubin once. and it was my first time at ubin where it stormed like crazy. we went shooting around river valley once. it stormed like crazy and we got wet even under shelter. we went to east coast once. to pick up some branches. it stormed like crazy and we took stupid shots in the rain. so i think no matter when we go to vietnam, there will be a day where it will storm like crazy. i dont know. but storms are like God's way of saying hello to us. (:

my stormy friend. this was taken in school donkey years ago when i was shooting my tomatoes and cherries. they helped me a lot.

my stormy friend, originally uploaded by shirley_s.

this was when i attended crowbar at mandarin. we went for a walk down orchard and then jingmei happily said she wanted to take photo with the family sitting down there. so so we did! haha. its really quite funny!

P1010001, originally uploaded by shirley_s.

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i was so sleepy during the second part of dr wang's class today. i kept nodding off. i love it when he discusses his personal experiences, whether in japan or the states. he reminds me of terence. terence was born in hongkong, holds a british passport, studied in london, working in singapore! but the thing about history class is that its very small, and dr wang has a lot of time to make eye contact with each individual in class. sometimes i dont know where to look. i will just smile and nod. haha.

wanted to meet mr zhou after class today. but on the mrt i was so excited that i asked yanhui to go eat with me. i ate a lamb stuff crepe. i didnt quite like it. its kinda strong. we had dessert and that was dinner. then i happily asked her to go to the museum with me. haha. its really really nice. i love the art museum. its been a while since i went there. i should have made use of my TPDes pass more. its free. same goes for SADM students. i really really liked Mr Gao Xing Jian's art. it is very beautiful, it contains a lot of emotions. it speaks to you personally. i feel. i think i would go back there again for it. i got a little freaked out at that southeast asian art part. the part about gods and deities. i got so inspired that i went to buy paint. then i got the wrong one. i had wanted water colour, but i got oil instead. how silly.

i was sharing with my cell a while back. its not how different/same you really are but how much are you willing to 'pay' to be 'in'. its like do you delibrately keep out. and not talk and stuff. it takes 2 hands to clap. if someone offers that hand, are you going to avoid. i think i am like that sometimes. i rather not be 'in'. i choose to be 'out' cos being 'in' means you gotta compromise. i dont like compromising. i dont like changes. i dont like people to walk slowly. i dont like auntyish decision making. i dont like too many people. i dont like noise. i dont like screaming girls on the bus in the morning to school. i dont like my bag being 6kg. i do like the refundable lockers at SAM. i do like knowing i want to go back to SAM to see Gao's stuff again. i like knowing that i am turning 21 this year because like i said last year, 21 is new and i like new stuff. i would like to go somewhere for the hols but i dont really want to go shopping while on hols because you only spend money on shopping and rarely do i get something i really like while on hols. i got my jacket from KL 4 years ago and the last trip to cambodia, the thing i really liked, other than the expericence, is the vietnamese hat. i dont like picking up strange calls and meeting strange people. by strange, i mean unfamiliar. by unfamiliar, i mean people i dont meet up on a regular basis. i like mostly familiar stuff. i dont like changes. because to change means there will be a difference. and i dont like difference. even when i enjoy clean bedsheets, i always lament the change in smell.

i am being annoyed at myself for being so annoying.

i think those were the best times of my life for now.

us, originally uploaded by shirley_s.

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this is my assignment. i am not VERY VERY worried about it. in fact, i have chosen this so i am kinda happy with it. i am suppose to learn a new skill. but i know most of the others, so i was thinking of improving this one. think the design school people will laugh when they see this. haha.

Tool Option #2:
Graphic manipulation: Photoshop CS
Adobe Photoshop (or its companion programme ImageReady specifically useful for web graphics, ) is an extraordinarily powerful (and complex) application for the manipulation of graphic images, especially photos. The intent here is not that you will become a Photoshop expert, but rather that you can develop some small skills which help to tackle one of the more common image editing tasks. Note: Other image editing tools may be used to complete this task, but our labs only support Photoshop.

Deliverables. The trainee is required to submit the following two items:
1. A single CD containing all pertinent image files, including all .psd (Photoshop format) files used during the task. If the images are used in a web page, please also include the html file of that web page.
2. Statements. You are also required to submit with the above graphics-related documents a single word-processed printout two statements which reflect your rationale for creating your particular graphic images, as well as your thoughts on the usefulness to a teacher of general of graphic or photo manipulation skills. Here are some specifics we are looking for in your statements:
a. Statement of Intent or Purpose. This is a 2-3 paragraph write-up of the purpose for whatever graphic(s) you will create. You may be creating a family photo collage, an advertisement for a meeting, a poster, a large graphic to be used in a web page, a logo for an organisation, a set of customised buttons or icons, etc.
b. Statement of General Usefulness. Describe in detail at least five concrete ways (generate specific examples) how you might utilise Photoshop (or ImageReady or another graphic/photo editing tool) in your future teaching.

Graphics Manipulation Skills Demonstrated. Please indicate in your Learning Contract which one of the following image editing skills you intend to demonstrate which you do not already know:
a. Simple animated GIFs which are commonly used to add interest to web-pages or Powerpoint presentations. Note: It is NOT necessary to make 3D animations for this task. To see some samples of simple GIF animations visit http://www.animations.com/en/search/index.mc?browse=cat&category_id=B12. (By the way, if you wish to create animations using photos instead of cartoons, that is OK.)
b. Transparent GIFs or PNGs which display properly on a variety of background colours (GIFs are more common, but PNG is more flexible. To see a comparison, visit http://www.lunaloca.com/tutorials/antialiasing/ (you will need to scroll down).
c. Filter effects or other special editing techniques on a variety of images chosen and modified to suit some specific purpose; for a brief taste please visit http://webmonkey.wired.com/webmonkey/03/16/index2a_page3.html?tw=design.
d. Layered graphics is a very powerful feature of Photoshop which allows for several pieces of a final picture to be edited and manipulated separately before being ‘added’ together into a composition whole; visit http://iit.bloomu.edu/vthc/Photoshop/specialeffects/layerstyles.htm, http://www.photoshopdesign.net/ccopy/layerfx.htm or http://www.sketchpad.net/psdlayer1.htm for more information what layers are and what they can do.
e. Image slices are used to create web ‘image maps’ useful for navigation purposes; to see some examples, visit http://graphicssoft.about.com/od/webgraphics/l/blsliceexample1.htm. (Warning, this particular skill should be tackled only by intermediate or advanced users who already are comfortable creating web pages.)
f. Another skill? If there is another Photoshop technique or skill you would like to learn, please discuss your proposal with your tutor before drafting your Learning Contract.
Parameters. Students are expected to supply all their own material for constructing their images. All photos used should be ‘home-made’, unless it is in the public domain (e.g., photos from NASA). Under no circumstances will trainees be permitted to use copyrighted material without first obtaining permission from the copyright owners!

ian just messaged me about little blessings from God. its the littlest things of God that i remember most of. like how i always manage to run that 300m and across the overhead bridge in time to catch the 23 bus to school when i was still in temasek polytechnic. and how each time i go into the studio, its nice and quiet and sorta dark where i can write and do my quiet time and reflection. how sam is so gracious in extending that consultation deadline when i was really down. and today's little blessing was right in school, the second i alighted from the bus, i fell down. you may wonder why i delight in falling down, i dont. i am just very thankful its the 9.30 class, so there were only 2 other people who alighted. hahaa.

lessons were usual. dr wang seems to have lost his magic. oh well. doesnt matter.

i brought li-en* around today because i intended to go to grandma's house. take a couple of pic of her. i dont know why. but i always wanted to take pic of grandma and grandpa. i did. i stole a couple of shots when grandpa was sleeping. i need to train myself to work the manual focusing a little faster. the birds would have all flown away given my speed.

i had actually wanted to go home and drown my sorrows in chocolate after school today. i had no mood for anything. i was just depressed after school. i dont know why. must be after seeing that nice shiny powerbook of my lecturer. but just as the mrt bell went ding dong ding dong at farrer park station, i rushed out and reached grandmams house eventually. that i am glad. went for dinner with grandpa. its our thing, y'know. my bros and cousins dont go out with him for meals i think. but i like it. hehee.

lalalaa.

(:

in cambodia

in cambodia, originally uploaded by shirley_s.

this was taken on the first day in cambodia. dont ask me what they were doing. i am just supposed to take the pic. haha. but i think this is really cute! haha. our sissy boys!

haha.

anyway, i finished one thing out of many many today. yea!

one thing. one thing. one thing. out of many many things.

school starts tomorrow. boohoohoo. i am really quite depressed about it.

khmer is like really difficult to learn and that CD i got, i am not too sure if its khmer or french.
haha. but at least i found out which recording is on which page. haha. what an accomplishement.
i sound so bimbo. haha.

no more self-pitying moody posts. i got enough money on my own for my dental surgery. hahahhaa. but i am like super scared to go for it. hahaa. i am chicken. hahaa. i got class from 9.30 to 6.30 with an hour break on tuesdays. how tragic is that. and thats the first day of school. boohoohoo. i didnt go to church today. had a bit of runny nose and stuff so i went to sleep and overslept. heard from cat that uncle bernard and juan shared today. a pity i missed the first service of the year. had a minor arguement with my mom today. sundays are bad days for us to be home together.

anyways. happy new year.

i feel like eating meat. pepper lunch. haha.

(: