some random stuff when i cant finish my homework.

1. i think the lingering discomfort in my mouth is due to the uneven distribution of work done in the mouth. i try not to chew with the right side and when i talk, i use the left side more.

2. when shirley dont talk, it actually doesnt mean i am observing stuff around me, but rather i am moody and i dont wanna talk. and if you talk less, you offend less people.

3. min thinks that the itch is caused by heat rash. heat rash dont last forever right?

4. i forgot to include in the prayer list - wisdom.

5. i am grateful for my old poly friends. they are so willing to help.

6. i think its quite amazing for my upper molar to touch my lower molar. hahaa. so exciting.

7. the kids today so patronising. i asked if they want my autograph in their lent devotion book. hahaa.

8. jo messaged me. so funny leh. it says - hi shirley, thanks for the long sleeve. hope he can wear for his 1st birthday. thanks for the buttons too. shld form a thaddaeus club and distribute for the fan memebers to wear. haha. thats why its nice giving stuff in plural. then you can share. heehee.

hey.. people has been kind enough to do the window thingy that i posted the link too. haha. thanks kinny, ian and buddy shu!!

i am so thankful that theres this mental wellness talk this morning. because GB is cancelled then i have no reasons to not be at red cross by 9am. i thought i was rather distracted there cos it was kinda boring. and the speakers and organisers probably thought i was a pest rather than a proper participant. hahaha. but its alright. i had the perfect, legitimate excuse not to be there at 9am but to be there after 2pm just like what i had indicated. but what was interesting was that i saw pastor barry there. the one who spoke at revelation, the st james thingy ages ago. haha. he is funny in real too. haha. i saw rev king. haha. our camp speaker ages ago. i hope he is still as funny. funny people really leaves deep impressions. hahaa. maybe being really smart-funny is a gift.

i havent journelled or draw for a long time.
my entire jaw feels heavy and tight. super uncomfortable. but i finished all the painkillers already. i am painkillerQueen. i can eat a lot of that.
do you know that i have only a 2 hour tutorial on monday. it takes me 3h to travel to and fro.
i sat in the toilet at amk sec sch for almost 15 minutes. trying to avoid people. ian asked how to be teacher this way.
i think the pjs i am wearing now is the ugliest thing on earth. my top is green vertical stripes. and my bottom is pink thin vertical stripes. by right i should look taller.
do you know that without opium, there might not be modern singapore?
i really really miss evelyn a lot. i just realised that i will be at camp for about 3 days without her. and engkee. evelyn's more impt. she goes with me during shower time and talks to me in the next cubicle. it is very impt to me.
the everglow is good man! its the genre that i dont enjoy but i enjoy it. hahaa.
i need time to think about what i want to do and what i need to do. so pardon me if i dont wanna hang out for dinner in big groups.

llalalaaa. i need to sleep
i need to pay my phone bills tomorrow!

AUNTY K! if i ever say i am going to help out in red cross ever again, whack me, beat me, tie me up, whatever, just dont let me go. kill me if you must. perhaps i have been away for too long that i cannot agree with a lot of things that is happening. why force myself. i've been converted. i am a radical.

anyways, i FINALLY found everglow. the guy at the shop, trumpet praise, asked - how do you know mae? with much difficulties, i uttered - my friend. i am soo soo glad to find mae. he told me its a good album. and theres only 2 places that carry it - trumpet praise and wakemeupmusic. while i had the impression all along that wakemeupmusic has it and i know exactly where is it, i never mustered enough courage to go. hahaha. now i got my mae. djulian told me about the CD, while i was on the bus with him on my birthday and i made him donate 5 dollars for bike for bibles. hahaha. he told me that i will like it and i would like the illustration. i am a very easy person to read. you can read me through like a transparent piece of plastic.

i thank God that the surgery went well. the nurses were quite cute. i took a picture of the xray of my teeth and she said she could send it to me easily, i just have to leave my email add around. i was super nervous. very very very very nervous. i could see and hear all that happened. they dressed me in this blue gown and i thought we might have blood spattering everywhere. first the dentist gave me 3 jabs. it hurts man! then i closed my eyes and said my prayers. actually i could feel the stuff. i hated the sawing and grinding sound. when the dentist wanted to finally pull out my tooth which he cut into half, he will make the nurse hold my neck and he will tug it out. it was quite scary and it was painful!

tj

tj, originally uploaded by shirley_s.

something that i did. enjoy while i am gone.

aint he cute? he looks so grown-up here. and hes only 7 months old. jo's gonna kill me. she loves her 7 month old baby.

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hmm.. the more i look at this, the more i find it weird.. but nvm la hor.. hahaha.

hee. been posting a lot. cos its term break i guess. i ought to be doing work. but let me heave a sigh of relief! phhewww. hahaa. MIN's card is FINALLY COMPLETED! we went to pick up the card today and it looked not too bad actually. i was worrying since last friday when i sent it to print cos i thought the gold was too gold and it might not go too well with the blue. and today i was worried that the envelopes might not fit the card. i am such a worryQueen. hmm.. everything seem to have went well.. thank God for His grace and mercy.

today i went to school to get some work done. not that i got anything really concrete done but i photocopied all the readings required for the opium and imperialism essay. all is well except that i dont know what is imperialism and because of that i cant really write the imperialism essay. haha.

i think my school friends are really funny. i cant remember what i did for term break last year but i reckon i didnt have much friends then. but this year, there are people who tell me when they are going to the school library just in case i need company. i am really thankful because i am not one who will ask people to accompany me to the library or anywhere for that matter. i always pretend to be independent. i dont know why, but i prefer not to let people know that i am 'weak' in that sense.

haha. i just received an email from one of min's friend. thought its quite interesting who's been appearing in my mailbox lately. the last strange one was rev soon. i thought it was kinda hilarious, then i realised it was one of those 'reply all' emails. same goes for this one..

k la. pray for me.

and heys, i got one of these too: http://kevan.org/johari?name=shirleyseahyewhwee

yesterday while i was brushing my teeth, i said this to God - hey God, You are the only one i would talk to before brushing my teeth. hahaa.

actually i am rather worried about the dental thing on wednesday. i really hope that he will tell me that my wisdom tooth miraculously disappeared in the last six months, probably digested by my salivia. but its not quite possible aint it.

on sunday, before the wedding dinner, tim, min, juan, sarah and me went to this cafe at amara hotel. its a lovely place with nice desserts. i like it. hehehe.

i forgot what else i am gonna say...

hmm.. i just realised for every five friend of my age, theres 1-2 who can drive or is learning to drive. sigh. i think i really want to be able to drive. but i dont think i am up to it.. its like a foreign concept to me. thank God, my house is highly accessible by public transport, except to school. hahaa. my dad told me not to learn how to drive too.. hahaa.

hmm.. i finally saw thaddy after such a long long time. i really missed him lots! hehee. such a cutiee. hahaa.

k. i wanna watch tv so i will put down my thoughts randomly in short sentences.

i am gonna bake lemon cheesecake.
my dental surgery is on wednesday. tim, you are not helping by making those grinding noises.
its term break.
i need to run or risk growing fatTER.
i have this skin problem on my legs. it never went off ever since i came back from cambodia.
i wanna go somewhere this hols.
i am helping out in red cross again. to return favours.
i think the church kids are really cute, joanne, jasmine, andre, ansel, ariel, hannah, joel, sam, vanessa, JAYNE! i like her soooo much, shes such a cutiee!

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thats it. aurevoir.

i thought today's prostitution presentation went pretty well. i was arguing that prostitution was good for colonial singapore. sigh. as much as i had facts to back my stand, i felt that morally, prostitution was not to be condone nor tolerated. oh well, all in all, it was a good presentation and i am kinda glad it's over. my date for tomorrow v-day is mr paul stapleton, i never seem to finish that particular reader response. k la. i dont know what to say anymore. hiatus until i finish my assignments.

reader response
academic discourse
classroom management
shift in political center
opium and imperialism
ICT many many things.

sigh.

some random thoughts -
i think shes very brave
cycling was good yesterday. but felt that i havent really exercised
dinner was nice. i like the salt pepper thingy
my left wrist hurt last night
my right elbow is hurting
dr tan messaged me this morn
i wake up to the lao shu ai da mi ringtone cos its an annoying one

some not so random thoughts -
angel, if you are reading this, you must have reached safely. have a good semester!

when i took my o level results 4 years ago, i was just very glad that i passed. it was an amazing feeling. i remembered catherine's sms. it was really nice. but i do hate annoying people who ask you how much you got. maybe thats why i dont ask that way.. i just go, so how did it go? its kinda easier to answer that way. good, bad, so-so. then its just how you feel about it. exams killed many here i think. i was scolded quite terribly when i got 35 for my primary 3 CA. upon 50. its not that bad actually. i got caned for getting 70 for ting xie. see, its meaningless to a certain extent. my brother is doing so much better even though he got crap results for o levels.

people get annoying sometimes.

i think my dentist dont have very good follow up procedures. its been half a year since i went. he havent called me to go back.

i dont wanna take photos at dora's wedding. the whole feeling about having not taken good pictures bothers me. and it bothers me for a very long time. i dont like being forced into it. but i dont know how to say no. especially persistant ones. it sucks la. the only time i feel good about the photos i have taken is the cambodia ones. i really loved those. photography is a forgotten first love. hahaa.

the last night of taipan jin was not bad. i just felt that it lacked the glamour and beauty of what i have imagined the 50s shanghai was.

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i always doodle in class. maybe except history. but as i doodle, i will be listening. sometimes my doodling is a little distracting. haha. then during ALS, i really couldnt concentrate. i had 2 cups of coffee the day before and i was really on caffeine high. i didnt sleep the night before. so i was drawing on eena's card. drawing a lot, too much in fact. haha. i stopped when i thought she was not happy with me for not looking like i was paying attention. she made me stay back after class. i thought she would go, "shirley, i think you need to pay attention." thank God she didnt. nothing happened. i was not scolded, she needed a favour thats all, afterall, i thought i am already a tertiary student.

i am choosing social studies over art. i dont want to get squares on my artwork like in mr ronald's class anymore.

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i am watching the last night of ta pan jin tomorrow.

woohoo~

heeheee.
allywally.. i think i was kinda stresed. and really. God provides. He's an awesome God even when things are down. i am kinda really happy now. must be all that coffee that i drank today. hahaha. God has been really gracious. i know things are changing because He made them change.

remember the last time when i had to share in YE and i had to do my presentation in pdf cos i cant do powerpoint. HAHAHAAA. i mastered powerpoint. hehee. i did a fairly decent one this time round. i am really glad. and i didnt use any special fonts. i used arial. i dont know why but i have been fed on the diet of not using arial. i feel so accomplished. though a little kanchiong.

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i think i am really sotong today. i must have been too tired. kinda glad that i have not been going out too much lately. i bought a grande mocha today. had trouble finishing it. then i did the next most retard thing. i made coffee, brush my teeth, had a shower and the coffee is still sitting on my table.

mrs ow is pregnant. hip hip hooray! pray for safety for the baby and mother. and the father ought to be working harder to provide for the baby. haha. thad thad's stuff can pass to baby ow. hahaa. i wont buy too big stuff for the new baby this time round.

sotong me thought that tomorrow hand in reader response. and i kanchionged. today they told me its next week. by hook or by crook i must finish my readings.

got one essay and one presentation.

die la.

ok. i am almost all done for the BSS stuff. phew. a sigh of relief. i know i am making money for that. but thats not the point. i get very scared that i will make mistake. and they are printing like some 30000 copies. this is my largest publication project so far. if you dont count OAG EFGC la. hahaa. its a no brainer. but need to be very meticulous. and careful.

anyways, yesterday i went to BSS to want to complete the stuff and then head over for meeting. boss was nice. he asked if i wanted my group to meet at the conference room, then i wont have to travel. but i declined la. not so nice. we went for lunch with rev john cheng of FEBA. he is sucha humourous and nice man. haha. had a good lunch. it doesnt feel very 'business-y' but it sorta felt like a family gathering. haha. which is good cos i only had 2dollars in my wallet. forgot to bring money. hehee. i didnt know why was i included in the lunch. because i am not even working there on a regular basis. but i am very very thankful. maybe cos angie couldnt make it.

rushed rushed rushed. haha. anything can be rushed except for design stuff. haa. i ran to the busstop and ran from the busstop. i left BSS at 3.12, and i reached PS BK at 3.24. hey. maybe i dont run that tortoise-slow anymore. haha. God has been really gracious. i want to make things right with Him, with the people He placed in my life. its not a matter of whining and bitching but really, i want to get it right from within. we thank God for diversity, but i think deep down, we want one or two that is like us.

went for dinner with peiqi and yujun. for a moment, i thought they were never reaching. haha. we walked and walked after dinner till my feet hurts.

i woke up feeling like i have a hangover. terrible man. woke up at 1030. bleh. the last time i had alcohol was cny day2. we had wine at my granduncle's place. its kinda dry and i didnt like it. hehee.

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someone has zapped all my energy away. i feel sooo tired. perhaps its cos we went for dinner and ended up walking endlessly. the birkies have become uncomfy. we went to outofthepan. hmm.. getting a bit tired of the food though its just twice i've been there this year. should have went to subway. anyway. they treated me cos i was broke.

God has been really patient with me. (: