i have a terrible headache.

i wonder what advice would those kiddos give?
cher.. jump down from the building?


i need to go to the post office tomorrow! need to mail something to phnom penh.

i struggle so hard for reasons unknown to... dont know how to say..


i am trying to learn the guitar again.
i am being very disagreeable lately.
i am having diarrhea very frequently. but my temperature is fine. 36.4.
i dont like mark&spencer ginger snap.
i like the durian kaya my mom brought back.
i hate it when people are too early then you insist i am late.
this happened this morn when i happily arrived at 1145 for a 12 appointment. the woman insisted i was late cos 2 other people turned up for their 12 appointment at 1115.

i wish i could go to bed without my shower.

GOD IS GOOD. YAY!

it's such a joyful morning! i dont usually check my mail in the morn but i thought i will do it today.

i received emails from TERRY and MING GHEE.
these awesome people are teachers in cambodia!

God is good! all the time!

and so what i read -
four of the kiddos got jobs already!
six of them are going for interview today!
and one hotel is willing to take some other students!

I AM EXCITED TOGETHER WITH THEM OVER THERE!
I CANT WAIT TO BE BACK!!

aint God just so awesome!
we've been praying together with them even while we were there, about opportunities opening up for the boys and the other students, and then you see God so generously providing. and the other awesome thing is how the teachers remember us and update up!

i am thankful to God that i have been faithful in this.

GOD IS GOOD!

this morn i had diarrhea. i was kinda worried. took my temperature to see if i was having a fever. phew. no fever and the diarrhea was gone in a while. i might be at risk of typhoid. apparently the incubation period could be up to three weeks. two more weeks to go, if i am fine, then i should be fine. next is malaria. i am not sure how much at risk i am. but i should be fine too! hahaha.

some people i will go all out to do everything for. but for others, it takes a little more consideration sometimes. if you are from the YE, and you message me, i normally wont hesitate to reply. if you are someone else, perhaps i will consider what is it that you have for me. thats how biased i am. but i treat everybody nice, maybe with a little bit of hypocrisy sometimes.

i need to sign up for confirmation class. that's it with adult baptism sometimes. that even when its an informed decision that had been considered, its an Anglican thing to go through confirmation. not that i mind anything, it will be good to relearn some of the things i might have neglected.

i just blew another hundred odd on photographs. oh dear, i spent like 500dollars in less than a week. therefore i have decided to lead a life like a pauper. to end my life in extravagence, i decided to watch a movie, but they dont have it. oh well. God is saying i need to save my money to embark on future missions.

i kinda agree with rach. we forsake our principle and moral for good friends and mentors such as tim and min that we wear dresses and shirts for their wedding. haha. and that hanging out with older people is not fun most of the time.

grandma commented today that my mum used to cut greatgrandma's toenails and i am now doing the same for her. i liked hearing that actually. i like serving my grandmama in that way.

i am growing fat. i have been eating nonstop since i am back. i start my tuition tomorrow. ryan. ryan is the name of my first kid. thats 4 years ago. ryan is also the name of my forth kid too. starting tomorrow. i hope i do a good job.

(:

i tried really hard not to believe when i read jf's blog. until i read mz sir's blog. then everyone else's blog. it's almost a month since the accident happened.

i never knew jane ma'am. i had problems recognising her. she was not so involved when i was in TD. but you will know who is she cos everyone is just so in awe of her. she's like this superwoman whose invisible presence is a source of inspiration to the young ones. whatever it is, may the Lord continues to be a source of comfort to those who loved her dearly.


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6 weeks of cambodia + 1 wedding = shirley being very very tired.

we talked about the 6 weeks in cambodia before.
the one wedding - tiMin's wedding.
the first wedding i attended in dresses - church and dinner - in ten years.
the most awesome wedding i attended - both church and dinner.
great worship at church - the team was just too good.
the deco was beautiful.
tim's mtv was so sweet.
the bride was so beautiful.
the pageboy was so cute.
the flowergirl had to be the prettiest.
the bridemaids were lovely.
the sermon was really meaningful.
everybody was really happy.
the photographer was great. the pictures he took was just gorgeous.
the groom and groomsmen were pretty slack. still watching soccer at 8ish.
the dinner was really cool.
andrew's song was really nice.

i went to tim's place at 8 in the morn. was really tired. stayed up the whole night to do the programme but couldnt finished. was really worried. but he kinda assured me that the ushers could do them. i reached his house, one of his family friend - aunty marianne helped me. it was almost complete when i reached the church. tim was really slacker. he was walking around topless and watching soccer. the groomsmen came. quite funny. andrew won the bet with joel. its so funny. how come my brothers dont do that? i went down to the church with them. i took the front. wudok, tim and andrew squeezed at the back of tim's car. chong drove. haha.

went down to the church. it was great seeing those kiddos after 6 weeks.
after service, we went to juan's house.
slept there a bit.
changed into my dress. yanleen did my hair and make up. thank God for juan, myrtle and yanleen.
went to buy shawl.
went for dinner.
it had to be the best wedding i attended.
everyone involved was just so sincere.
they just wanted the best for tim and min.
min looked gorgeous.
tim looked really happy.

everybody was kind yesterday. they said i looked good in both the dresses. but like ian said, it's back to black tops and blue jeans. tim called on friday as i was going to josh's place. he told me to take a cab to his house the next morn and he would pay. i asked about my dress, he said he will pay for the dress and the cab. i said i bought 2 dresses, he said - YOU PUNK. i thought it was really funny.

i am too tired to write.
goodnight.

(:

***

i have to say this no matter how tired i am.
the junior band did a great job today! they were so awesome.
jiansheng, twinneh - darren or daryl?, sandra, nat, marcus.
rach led. martin did the PA.

main service was cool too.
yanleen did a marvellous job. i think God was smiling just now during worship.

(:

li en asked what is my blog's address.
THIS IS IT!
HELLO LI EN!!!

i feel my stomach digesting itself. argghh..

back in singapore.
i am amazed.
we have electricity 24/7,
my fridge's always cold,
there's teevee.
woohoo!

went for sushi as i desired.
had a lot of fun in cambodia.
this blog will stay for a while.
i gave the address to some of the kiddos there.

its 7.30 in cambodia now.
yesterday i was doing library work.
that was after i had dinner at this place.
this place where the students set up a t-shape table.
and had 3 bouquets of flowers on it.
it was gorgeous.

really sleepy now.
got stuck outside my house cos i didnt bring my keys.
bleh.
my darl brought me my mother's keys from my mother's workplace to my house.
so thankful for that kiddo.
but she stood to benefit.
it was all expenses paid taxi rides.
home-mother-myhouse-home.
i gave her $20 for her camp tomorrow.
and she took my powder, toothpaste, shampoo, conditioner, shower gel, sweets, krama, whatever she could lay her hands on.

i didnt cry this morn when we left.
six weeks passed so fast.
i cried last night during dinner when susan was praying for us.
thank God so so much for susan, terry, ket, MG, aunty Y and aunty kyoko.

i dont know what to say about my trip.
i just know that i got to wash even my clean clothes.
cos i am afraid i brought back bugs.
hahah.

that's all.
trip will be shared as and when i please.
and when it is asked.
i will try not to entertain questions on msn.
cos i really dont know what to say.

just thank you Lord. so so much.

i really love cambodia,
except for the dusty phnom penh.
i want to go back there again.
to see my friends.
i've got cambodian friends.
i am khmerian.
haha.
i could go back as tourist, or on mission trip.
whatever You desire.
i didnt promise anyone though.
not brave enough like terry to write - i'll be back.
was reading a friend's blog. too hum chee to go back alone.
haha.
but i really wanna go back.
to siem reap, to sihanoukville (i thought i spelt it wrongly, but i googled it.), to himawari hotel.
himawari is 5-star. how to afford staying there.
but if i am in PP and they are there, i will stay there.
promise.

singaporeans. i am speaking about myself too.
sometimes we are so self-centered.
so ya-ya papaya.
so annoying.
so stuck up.
whats the difference between us really?
we serve one God.

i promise also only to say edifying things about the trip.
no more complaining.
i told what i felt to william already.
enough.
maybe i will tell aunty k somethings i felt while i was there.

i need to see doc too.
skin doctor.
blah blah blah.

i am back with letters for a lot of people.
people i know.
people i dont.
really cool. i will make sure they reach them.

rach bought me this really cool pencil.
its like.. wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cooooooooooooooooool.
awesome!

(:

excursion to the internet cafe again. all the peeps i love have gone to church camp and the ungrateful ones didnt say HI online. sigh. tim, i spent S2.40 buying you potato chips and thats how you treat me. solitude is a rarity in this quiet village. i've been getting erratic moodswings and i have got major differences with **. sigh. they are all standing behind me as i am typing. reading out what i am typing. kinda interesting. they say the kids that came to PKH last year were short and fat. if they say that about me when i go back, i will kill them one by one. they call me a-mut. which means fatty. thats kinda sad, giving up my vacation to be here and get treated like that. sigh! SL went to PP. but i got to stay cos we got internet lesson today. not that i mind, because i get carsick really easily. i puked on my way to Aoral and is the laughing stock here.

a singaporean team came a while back. they called themselves ray of light. hmm. yea.

i got pretty good results. thank God for His grace and mercy, i could have done worse. thank you friend for checking it for me.

i miss grandma and grandpa. i almost cried after talking to them. i miss them lots!

i am flying back already. i will be back on the 20th. will be departing PP at 840. will reach Sg at 1140. i reckon it will be earlier than that.

i wil

*i typed this at the internet cafe on friday. the friday before all the other kiddos were back. the computer hang and i thought it was all gone. but its still here. so thankful!
they bought me fried banana, fried sweet potato, made me eat bread and some strange thing with chili and i got diarhhea the next day and was forced to stay in on the sunday. didnt get to go the market.