that's me grandma & me. with my uncle's new camera. haha. he bought a new camera to lend me. i am overwhelmed once more.

i saw SAM today! ITS SO AWESOME!

the men in my family are so.. erm.. its sth positive though. for now.

i thought of bringing my notebook for the trip because 17 days = lotsa photos. but i am not too keen. now i have 2 1G CF cards for li-en* and 2 1G + 1 512MB SD card for the new camera. so 4G + 512 MB means i dont really need a notebook. have to split between the two cameras though. (:

exams over
went bookactually
bought books
went library
borrowed books
i am geek

had i not met ian, i would never step into bookactually
it carries an air of threat - to me at least
like asylum

i dont like the sakae sushi at the frontier
BAD SERVICE screams out loud

met stefanie
she got letters for the kiddos at SOH
so sweet right

saw cool~ sketchbook at bookactually
till i remembered i bought muji ones already
and i had a project i wanted to do
wahahaha

damien rice
leslie low
their music make good company

had a good day
the cherry on top of it would have been able to meet gerald
dude's not free though

oh well.
God knows. He really do. and He holds. i mean it.

(:

pray for me for good stewardship of money
1. sponser a child for a year
2. for the aoral development of healthcare and education

* edited. 27nov
i dont even have to think about it by myself. haha.
must call uncle pakchee.
haha.

dear people of the world:

eating alone can be an enjoyable affair, regardless of where it is.

so please stop staring at me!

(:


i've been eating alone alot. sometimes its good to have company cos you can order more variety. but eating alone is good too. you tend not to overeat/overorder. and you can take your own time and do your own stuff.

tired.
very tired.
so very tired.

our costumes for puppets and drama are ready!
praise God!

feel like attempting one more chapter. but i am kinda dead already.
mission meeting tomorrow. this time for the children's team.

(:

i really think that having lunch with people tomorrow is a good idea.

please apply below.

tired. thankful for the ride that i so shamelessly asked for from uncle pakchee. one day is not a lot but i guess i took it quite badly because it messed with my schedule. i totally screwed up for the paper. there were concepts that i forgot and things that i remembered i forgot. but i wont fail my math module cos i have done rather well for the 30-40% from class participation to math quizzes. its just really bad. C, maybe C+. i have never been good in math.

i was waiting outside the HSSE office for about 15 minutes, waiting for someone to be in there so that i can collect my AAH234 essay. the office was not locked, but there was no one in there, so i just sat by and waited. dr rahil came by and she was like - what are you doing here? let me go in with you so you can just take your paper. so shes my hero! saved from waiting. dr wang didnt give me B! haha. he gave me A-. so ultra thankful la!!

tired tired tired!

today's devotion spoke very personally to me. my focus should and always be on God alone. let nothing distract me from His power, His grace, His mercies, wisdom, Him.

like daniel,

"...20Blessed be the name of God for ever and ever: for wisdom and might are his:
21And he changeth the times and the seasons: he removeth kings, and setteth up kings: he giveth wisdom unto the wise, and knowledge to them that know understanding:
22He revealeth the deep and secret things: he knoweth what is in the darkness, and the light dwelleth with him.
23I thank thee, and praise thee, O thou God of my fathers, who hast given me wisdom and might, and hast made known unto me now what we desired of thee: for thou hast now made known unto us the king's matter." - Daniel 2:20-23

rest rest rest! mission training tomorrow!

my God is the God of gods, King of kings.

(:

i am kinda like really screwed up for my math exam tomorrow. thinking it is on the 21st, i have yet to prepare.

):

那个被人爱的朋友,
你要好好的珍惜,
不见了,
我会大声地笑你的.

我想吃苹果,
可是家里只有香焦.

香焦坏了,不能吃了.

*伤心地哭了

哈哈.我还廷drama

after sleeping through the 13th, i almost forgot:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENISE SARA BRYAN!

welcome to adulthood.

(:

the previous post sounds stupid now that i am reading it. my finger healed. and i just woke up from a 16h sleep. now i am good and ready to conquer the world, with webbie and God of course. but first theres exams to study for, photos to print out, errands to run for ming ghee and preparations for missions, which is a lot of things to do.

i am trying to get a book done for thad, not after i finish his daddy stuff first.

i am hurt.

seriously. dont laugh.

hahaha.

hurt in the physical way.

not too serious either.

i kinda cut my finger and palm on the back of the saw blade.

hurts terribly though its not serious at all.

the pain has extended to my arm.

i am typing with my middle finger now.

ket and terry are going to melbourne now.

talked to ket. its so nice hearing a familiar voice on the phone to talk.

havent talked to anyone on the phone for a long time.

like talk about nothing at all.

bo liao stuff.

maybe secondary school.

cant bring myself to call anyone.

what if i disturb you?

haha.

i am pathetic.

ahahahhahaha.

hurts real bad.

cant wait for it to heal.

hope it is not getting infected or anything.

bleh.

i felt alive today.
walking in the rain, and getting soaked to the skin.
cold winds and cold ice cream.
i thank God for the rain, it was a time of refreshing.
i thank God for trees, they provided shelter.
i thank God for puddles, cos they are awesome to jump into.
i thank God for cars, cos they make big splashes. the way i like it.
i thank God for thunders, though they scare me, they remind me of God.

i got back my essay. i got a B+ surprisingly. dr radin was pretty apologetic for giving me a B+. but if its not A grade, then it shouldnt get an A, so i pretty much thought that there was nothing to be sorry about. i will just work harder for exams.

if you pretend to be happy, people actually believe you then they will leave you alone.
so i will be smiling a lot more, if it makes you happy.

(:

thats hon! haha. i just wanna put a picture but i dont know what. so here goes hon and the last year's ndp logo. i love hon's glasses. they are always so cool!

theres math quiz tomorrow and i am quite clueless about it. oh dear. counting on the grace of God.

i realise that i cannot come to terms with it. its just strange la. cant wait for november to be over, to get away from it all, especially dec14-17, thats my space. hahaha. i am autistic. maybe thats why i can teach clement. cos we are the same.

got other stuff to say, but i gotta practice for my math quiz. did i mention i scored 18.5/20 for my last quiz. 16/20 for the last last one. and 18-9/20 for the first one. i am quite the genius in the making. ahahhahahahaha. craziness.

i have decided to be a little pessimistic. cos thats me. (:

my heart's desire.
i kinda screwed up big time this morn. i told aunty jen the correct thing then the wrong thing. wahhh!!!

its okay la.

do young people today think that life is a bed of roses? thats why they are not prepared for anything. oh well. i might be a little pessimistic.

anyway, i really like the pic of thaddy and mummy. i am gonna print it out and do something with it. and i must really find something of thaddy and daddy.

my left arm is aching. i took my influenza vaccine yesterday. i think its dumb.


hungry*

thought this looked really sweet.

jo and thaddy

(:

got this from jinhui's blog. thought its so apt.
do you know my best friend? His name spells J.E.S.U.S!

haha. so thad thad came today. ansel, thaddy, clement and i ate raisins together in the cry room. i made a little "get-well-soon" gift for thaddy. its a balloon giffafe giraffe. but i forgot cry room rule - you cannot make one of those. you have to make a dozen. ): clement took it first, then ansel, so little thaddy didnt get a chance to play with his gift. gwyn came to church for the first time. motherhood seems to be agreeing with doreen. rongchang looks happy. i can't imagine myself married or being a mother. its too surreal.

i am just really glad to see thaddy today.

i took my first communion after confirmation. its really surreal. haha.

wanted to show ya guys webbie and a narcissistic picture of myself. but the handphone bluetooth is not agreeing with the computer.

my favourite lecturers over the years from tp to nie must be derek and dr wang. both men i look up to because they feel so strongly for their countries in a certain way.

and one of my top holiday destination is malate. i saw it on teevee once and i told myself i have to go there like this year or the next.

and guess what.

derek lives in malate. hahhaa.

malate, according to the documentary i watched is the art/design area in the philippines.

and i have always wanted to visit the philippines because you said that you wanted to go. but i guess it means nothing to you now though. still, i want to go there as much as i like cambodia and vietnam.

hahaha.

(:

this week was too long yet there was not enough time. i am glad its over. do you know. i got 18.5/20 for my divisibility test! and dr teo said that only a handful got the last question correct. i saw my hottie today. 3 times. once as i was walking to math, twice in the canteen. how blessed. i kinda worry for the essay i handed in to a/p wang. if i can get a B, i thank God for the miracle. dr radin 's essay is sorta better. a B would suffice. i am not greedy, i have got no ambition whatsoever, in this honours program. 2nd lower would be good enough for me. i remember working really hard to remain on the director's list in TP. i did. thanks to the grace of God. i feel misunderstood. i am enjoying the wait. but i question its motives. i thought of going to holland v tomorrow. drinking my mocha and having my strawberry berry tart, but i am really short of cash. an appeal, if you would like to bless me for my mission trips, i would appreciate if you could give me a call. i now know why i dont see a doc. i dont know how to start describing whats wrong with me. i feel that being sick like this helps me understand grandma a bit more, either that, or we are both wrong. i went to aunty k's house today. had lunch with my dear little hannah. i had been so tired, but its such joy to play with that little one.

***

i went to the library today.
i wish i had more time in there. but i didnt have my phone and couldnt call my mom.
i want to do something. so i thought of something to do.
i hope i can finish it by christmas or sth.
i thought i could see thaddy tomorrow. but hes really sick.
one less thing to smile about.

i feel really tired.
i slept till 1.30 today.

life's like this.
essays.
mission meetings.
church stuff.
mission meetings.
BB/GB camp.
exam #1
exam #2
exam #3
exam #4
mission trip #1
mission trip #2
siem reap hols.
ye camp.
GESL #1
GESL #2
christmas.

sometimes i wish things would come to an end.
i had so much to say a moment ago.
but i guess some things are better left unsaid.
people like it better that way.

i wish i have a friend.
someone whom i can call to talk on the phone.
someone whom i can ask to have lunch or dinner with.
someone whom will sit by the roadside with me.
someone to go shopping with.
someone to go for coffee with.
someone who can teach me how to play the guitar and tell me i am too slow. or fast.
someone who can tell me that my drawings are not sad actually.
someone besides webbie.
webbie cant talk. or eat or drink for that matter.

anyway. more than anything, i would prefer someone to get me a new camera. wahahaha.


k. i will go dwell in my own depression for now.
you can rescue me. buy me a new camera! hahahah!