on tuesday, i packed a little bear and a card with words for a friend that i dont know her name. i was doing my quiet time and i read a verse which kinda prompted me - yes, thats the one for her. so today she gave me CHOCOLATE! its so sweet of her. haha. i love chocolate. so it kinda looked like Christmas today when diana gave me some biscuits. hahaa. then yanhui bought me curry puff from the wrong store. haha. she didnt want to take money for the curry puff, i am supposed to return in kind. hahaa.

then though i think the prejudice my lecturer has against me is far greater than the one i have against her, i would not say much because i have made up my mind to allow my attitude to change for the better. and i will be submissive to her. oh well. at least i was paying attention in class.

then so happily, i went to drink coffee in the library. the coffee in my library very zhai one. haha. no smell one. so horrid. i felt sick after that la. was freezing in the library then in history class. i think i really looked very pale. cos even khai said that when i saw him. he found people to car pool. so he never have to take the bus and mrt home again. sob sob. will any kind soul pick me up from school? just wednesdays will do! haha.

anyways, i called my 老师 a while back. though i had some ulterior motive, but my intentions were still sincere. anyways, as with the last 3 years, she would ask 友薇, 有男朋友了吗? no la. of course. then she would say, 没关系, 这种事可欲不可求. then normally i would go - ya ya. then change the topic. cos nothing to say what. haha. but this time round, thoughts just flashed into my mind. just the past months, i got several friends who got relationship problems. its not the unexpected kind, its the right from the start you see it coming kind. oh well. but cos they wanted me to listen, so i sat by loh. and i often wonder why people get into a relationship. we all know the ultimate is to get married. but what really attracts each other. for now, i dont know. and it doesnt really matter. like i said to her, i am blissfully single now. haha. anyways, my 老师 is still as nice as she was 8years ago.

i have been thinking who have i been unkind to lately. i am usually very patient. but i havent been very kind to issac. i feel so bad, but i dont think i know him anymore so why does he have to call and all that stuff. i think when people dont talk for a while or dont see each other, it just becomes very awkward when you wanna talk. i dont mind listening. i can sympathise with people very easily but i cant talk. i dont like talking when i dont know you anymore and stuff. like what are we talking about? who are we bluffing. met up with a friend a couple of weeks ago. though we were close but it was just @#$% meeting up cos we have changed and dont know anything else. whatever.

i think people know i listen quite well. because this little kid msn me after a million months. then you wonder.. so long never see, got things to say meh. nothing loh. i never knew him anyway. i was his camp facilitator a year ago for a few days. anyway, what really impressed me was his discipline and determination. i was truly impressed by that little kid, yknow. but thats all la. i dont even remember what hes like. hahaa.

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