on and off, i will think about my teaching degree. a childhood ambition, a calling and almost somewhere a little in the distant, a gift. it is what i feel what God wants me to do, but at the same time, i feel that it is very restrictive and it is suffocating me. i can never, in the next seven years say that i want to take a break and leave for a year. i dont know, but perhaps this is God's provision of a structure and discipline He know i lack. whatever it is, pray that patience manifest in my life so that i can wait to see the Lord's glory in its fullness.

i start my proper guitar lesson on thursday. it is pretty exciting. anticipation is always exciting. thats why i try not to read the end of the book or finish a show too quickly. but i lack the patience.

i wash my long hair for the last time, i hope. except after gym tomorrow. hahha. chopping off my hair.. its too tedious to wash it and dry it and tie it and brush it daily.

had dinner with daddy and mummy and eric today. patrick is still in china and is coming back soon. i need to clean his jacket and make it look like i havent used it at all. hahaha. i was talking and talking and talking during dinner. i hope everyone was happy during dinner at least.

i need to go out and play in the sun. i havent seen the sun for a long time. but theres NO time!! hahaa. heck la. i will just sit in the sun in school one of these days.


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