a shoutout:

hello
allywally*
minny*


anyways.. i dont really like people saying thank you to me all the time.. because i dont know how to respond. i will just brush it off and say aiya.. but thats not what i really want to mean.. i want to say that its alright because its within my capacity and theres a power behind me. so you should just keep thanking God when you wanna thank me. but then again.. in my human weakness, sometimes a simple thank you does give the comfort that you acknowledge the act of kindess. but really.. most of the time.. i know that i am not doing it for myself but for the greater being in my life..

today we had mission training.. i shouldnt really be blogging but then i cant help it.. i have almost finished hitler.. i am studying elvis and john lennon. then later i will do mr mao. i am not going for leader's retreat on sat.. so it kinda frees more time for studying. then we got mission training at the chapel in st marg's on sunday so i am not going to church.. then again.. i kinda look forward to going to st margs. the last time i went was teacher's day last year.. which reminds me to give lao shi a call after exams - THANK YOU lunch for her for helping me.

i am quite a proud/arrogant person. i dont like receiving help. i find it tough to ask for help. be it time, or money or things or anything at all. i dont like it. it makes me feel even smaller than i already feel. so today's training is partly about how much grace it takes to give and how much MORE grace it takes to receive. its a tough lesson. so damn tough can. esp when this trip dont cost too much.

this trip is my first.. i really want to affirm whether God has a place for me on his overseas mission field. i believe we all have a place on the mission field, its just where and when. i want to be ready at all times to do His will and i want to know where.

hmm.. today we were planning stuff. and then i realised that right after my last paper - 21/11, its gonna be really busy. like 25 is the stayover camp, then minny's card, the children's cambodia's trip, GB camp (tentative), batam, cambodia, Christmas, weddings, i kept thinking that this hols is gonna be long but ahem.. not so after all.
lets see..
21 - last paper and celebration
22 - prep and stuff
23 - sentosa recce (tentative)
24 - last minute prep for sentosa
25 - sentosa with p6s /children mission team going away (aiya.. means cannot go send them off)
26 - home sweet home and sleep somemore
2-4 - batam?
5-9 - shopping for clothes/camera/pepper lunchy with uncle william! hahaha.
10 - wedding!
15 - commissioning prayer and ye camp
16-23 - cambodia
25 - Christmas service with my starshub
26 - aicheng's wedding - i think can wear the same stuff.. diff group of people!

there goes the year!! in the midst of the dates written - theres wedding cards to draw, wedding to prepare - bangla shirley! haha. Christmas presents to make (esp for a cute guy named thad) and the shoe thing i wanna do!! alalalalaa.

i need to breathe!! hahaha!!


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