sigh. i wish i can fall sick now. a little fever wont hurt anyone. i wish for 38degrees. i had wanted to give shuling a call to tell her to send my apologies to josh for not being able to attend his birthday party. all the ra-ra ever since i am back from cambodia is a little too much. the year is coming to an end, i wanna spend some time reflecting upon the year, do the stuff that i had wanted to do. theres some potluck and sleepover, some church dinner that i didnt really want to go, a Christmas party that i know i have to go, and another Christmas thingy that i know i can avoid.

i know why i have so litte friends. sometimes people say stuff that i cannot answer and i dont try. i rather have little friends. school is starting. i am going to avoid coming online and sms.

i am moody.

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