my nick on msn still reflects my mood.
actually i want to start of with some history trivias. but as much as i try to remember what dr wang says in class to post, i will forget them as soon as i get home.

ok. heres one. but i guess most people know it already.

china remains one of the unique model where it can be so socialist yet so capitalist in nature. its a conflict that deng never resolved to rectify when he took over after mao's death. instead, he advocated it.

since we are on the topic of history, in response to ian's qn - history reflects the evolution of time. ok. that doesnt make sense. but in my study of history, it tells me that neither poets or historians are really valued by society because society values economic returns. in literature you people often engage yourselves in overt/covert political material which antagonise the government and the government tries all ways and means to get rid of you. ie. cultural revolution. anyway, ian, its hard to afford sentosa cove studying literature.

anyway, thats not supposed to make sense. i am just trying to recall what cultural revolution is.

oh. now that school has come to an end before the examinations. i want to give thanks.

thanks and praise be to the awesome God who has seen me through this semester with much grace and mercy and blessings. for those who dont know, i got a C+ for my history essay and it made me sooooo upset that i told myself that i would be satisfied being a C student all my school life. no expectations, no disappointment. so while i am overcoming the grief of deproving, i was pretty above average in poly and deciding which developmental stage i didnt complete well, i think i hear God telling me so clearly this - My grace does not simply extend over your schoolwork. it opened me eyes to all the blessings God has provided - my grandma's checkup revealed nothing wrong, my mother and family is supportive of me going to cambodia, etc etc, and in the form of these people
1. huimin, ian and yanleen - we meet up on alternate weeks to do BS together and then these people are so accomodating and they will 应酬 me no matter how silly i sound. esp huimin and ian, like who really cares if you get a C+. like what kind of big deal is that right? but they are so nice. hahaa.
2. da jie - when i get lazy to walk so many hundred metres to CanteenA, she will come over to NIE to have lunch. and she will queue to get food cos i am late. then i can rant all i need to her. and she just listens.
3. reena, khengli, yvette - they are in all my classes except my academic subject.
4. diana - i think one issue we are both facing is living a Christlike life in school. ya. she is really nice we dont talk much but she makes it a point to encourage me, i think God made me her responsiblity, thats why she does that. its nice being encouraged instead of the one always encouraging others.
5. xuemei - she calls me firmbutt which i dont like but all in the name of fun. fellow Christian with a heart for mission i think.
6. yanhui, sooling - yanhui is very generous. to everyone. her notes, her ideas, her food, everything. and three of us hang out together quite often cos our lunch/tea break is usually at the same time, ie. mon, wed, thu.

i am not trying to negate anybody's impact on my life by mentioning names. but these are the people i wanna highlight la. ok.

(: