i was so sleepy during the second part of dr wang's class today. i kept nodding off. i love it when he discusses his personal experiences, whether in japan or the states. he reminds me of terence. terence was born in hongkong, holds a british passport, studied in london, working in singapore! but the thing about history class is that its very small, and dr wang has a lot of time to make eye contact with each individual in class. sometimes i dont know where to look. i will just smile and nod. haha.

wanted to meet mr zhou after class today. but on the mrt i was so excited that i asked yanhui to go eat with me. i ate a lamb stuff crepe. i didnt quite like it. its kinda strong. we had dessert and that was dinner. then i happily asked her to go to the museum with me. haha. its really really nice. i love the art museum. its been a while since i went there. i should have made use of my TPDes pass more. its free. same goes for SADM students. i really really liked Mr Gao Xing Jian's art. it is very beautiful, it contains a lot of emotions. it speaks to you personally. i feel. i think i would go back there again for it. i got a little freaked out at that southeast asian art part. the part about gods and deities. i got so inspired that i went to buy paint. then i got the wrong one. i had wanted water colour, but i got oil instead. how silly.

i was sharing with my cell a while back. its not how different/same you really are but how much are you willing to 'pay' to be 'in'. its like do you delibrately keep out. and not talk and stuff. it takes 2 hands to clap. if someone offers that hand, are you going to avoid. i think i am like that sometimes. i rather not be 'in'. i choose to be 'out' cos being 'in' means you gotta compromise. i dont like compromising. i dont like changes. i dont like people to walk slowly. i dont like auntyish decision making. i dont like too many people. i dont like noise. i dont like screaming girls on the bus in the morning to school. i dont like my bag being 6kg. i do like the refundable lockers at SAM. i do like knowing i want to go back to SAM to see Gao's stuff again. i like knowing that i am turning 21 this year because like i said last year, 21 is new and i like new stuff. i would like to go somewhere for the hols but i dont really want to go shopping while on hols because you only spend money on shopping and rarely do i get something i really like while on hols. i got my jacket from KL 4 years ago and the last trip to cambodia, the thing i really liked, other than the expericence, is the vietnamese hat. i dont like picking up strange calls and meeting strange people. by strange, i mean unfamiliar. by unfamiliar, i mean people i dont meet up on a regular basis. i like mostly familiar stuff. i dont like changes. because to change means there will be a difference. and i dont like difference. even when i enjoy clean bedsheets, i always lament the change in smell.

i am being annoyed at myself for being so annoying.

i think those were the best times of my life for now.

us, originally uploaded by shirley_s.

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