i was thinking about my trip to takeo last year. the night before i left, i went to meet peiqi. as i was walking to the bus stop, i started crying because i felt really scared. yesterday, i felt that same kind of fear. about making the trip alone - is really scaring me. being in an unknown place, knowing no one, knowing nothing about getting there or getting home fills me with fear. yet at the bottom of my heart, i crave this adventure. i cannot put it off by saying, wait till i am older cos i think i am really old now. if i dont do it now, i think i will never get down to doing it. its my 21st birthday present to myself! so here i am people, pray for me when i leave for this trip.
14-17th december, siem reap. keep those days in prayers, for i will be exploring something that i have never tried before. then next semester, i can tell dr fernado, yups, i have been to the angkor wat. i will try to see the sunrise there. i will try if i am not too scared of the dark. anyway, backpackers inn got a lot of people. i will just learn to make friends. i will not pretend to be autistic. i will learn to make friends and get to know people. and ask if they want to see the sunrise in the angkor wat with me. i think i will be staying at the earthwalkers guesthouse. i am contemplating a twin room for myself or just bunk in one of those 4 people bunk. i think i need to ask aunty y to get me a ticket to siem reap when i go on the first. pray for good weather, cambodian roads are not all that good. a pity i have really bad motion sickness if not i might attempt to take the rail to somewhere.

anyway, i am getting confirmed on sunday. this sunday. and i will try to match the time i spend practising the guitar with reading the bible.

yups yups yupssss!

i am gonna do my readings. no more playing the guitar today. my fingers are sore already.

and yesterday i walked jolene to the mrt cos confirmation service rehearsal ended rather late and it was quite dark. shes sooo cute! after the rehearsal she asked if i was going home. i told her not cos theres cell that night in church. but i told her i will walk her to the mrt because it was dark. guess her reply? she said she brought that umbrella for that purpose and it would be dangerous for me to walk back alone. hahha. aint she so cute?!

I love You, I need You

Though my world may fall

I'll never let You go.

My Saviour, my closest friend

I will worship You until the very end.

- Jesus, lover of my soul

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