remember the teacher with the goatee i saw during my school experience.
i saw him in school today.
see, interesting facial features get noticed easily.
i should start growing hair on my face.



hahahahhahaa.

i am really happy! i got the MY LOVELY SAMSOON dvd from friend already.


woohoooooooo~

我是伟大的. 因为我有梦想.

人因梦想而为大.

我为
...将来想到柬捕寨教书而努力.
...将来想做一位好老师而努力.
...将来想去背包旅行而努力.
...将来想做一个好老婆而努力.
...将来想做个有人愿意买我的设计的设计师而努力.
...将来想要当咖啡店老板而努力.
...将来可以让我爸妈过的舒舒服服而努力.

我会努力的.
因为人都须要一个终点.

这是我希望我努力的终点.

那美好的仗我已經打過了，
當跑的路我已經跑盡了，
所信的道我已經守住了。
提摩太後書4:7

dr wang gave me the A for last semester's paper. hahaha. i was jumping with joy and filled with glee when he acknowledged my A paper in class. a bit embarassed though.

we are talking about the may4th now which led him to talk about some school in NUS that was ranked 16th in the world.

his schoolmate's (probably from princeton or somewhere who lectures in NUS) reaction - what number 16th? *in disbelief.

i thought it was funny. then again, whatever dr wang says entertains me.

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i am really really really really really happy today.

first, i am not screwing up in dr fernando's class anymore. at least not big time. he was asking questions today and he had to ask me the most difficult one - when was railways and roads extensively built in southeast asia. boy, it's hard man! before that, diana was looking at ian and asking, you know anot? it was pretty hilarious seeing their 'under table dealings' being carried out so openly. i was clueless as well. i just blurt out - 1860s and i am super thankful its being close. it was the mid 19th century.

second, impulsively i decided to get down the bus at boon lay drive and look for a ms tan. it was one of the recipents of the letters that the kids at seeds of hope asked me to 'send'. i went once but she was not at home. i was so thankful i stood at the door longer than i wished i would. and being able to witness the joy in her face when she received the letter made all the trouble worthwhile. i remember praying on the way up. God so graciously answered the prayer. thank you God! but.. silly me left my shoebag outside her house. i realised it when i was reaching the bus interchange. it took me another 20 minutes or so to walk back.

third, my postcard reached! yayy!! and she liked the flying pig. hehehehee. i am so glad! i sent another one to reply monique today. i hope it goes well. 26 days already and its not there yet. i am worried. but still.. its a happy day and i praise God for everything!!

fourth, sooling said she will lend me MY LOVELY SAMSOON! i was about to buy the DVD. SOOLING! IF YOU EVER WANT TO LIVE OFF ME FOR THE NEXT MONTH, I WILL GLADLY LET YOU DO SO!! WAHHAHAHAHA!!

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i like revisiting what i have written, sometimes i feel a sense of achievement though no one really understands my point. i cant find a couple of my journals. i stopped journalling after coming back from cambodia. maybe thats why i feel a little lost. i lost my love for journalling and drawing. perhaps i have been drawing strength from past experience instead of God.

i stared a long time into the mirror before i took my shower today. i realised that i grew to love to play with my hair. cos its longer than i ever had before. i like it. and i realised how silly misplaced determination is. i am glad i text messaged my friend and she replied. perhaps she will never know how she jolted me out of my silliness. haha. what a hairy issue.

i didnt draw anything after i finished the drawing for ian. he never complain leh. i know i put in effort into making that illustration, but sometimes effort dont exactly equal results. i hope he is pleased with the illustration.

i am gonna start drawing again. and because of that, some people in church will probably start receiving presents before Christmas. i never liked my self-directed, no direction project. knowing that someone will get something makes me happy and that is a good direction. ps william taught that our spiritual gifts are given to bless people.

cough mixture is being taken like some funky sweet drink lately - carelessly. i kinda like its taste and it works, so i am taking it seriously. it helps soothe the poor throat and does not hurt the stomach. i like. but it causes drowiness. so i only take it at night.

one of my little joy now is to write postcards and receive them. but it hasnt reached yet and i am upset. boohoohoooo.

i realised as much as i dont want to confront it, i have been trying unsuccessfully to reconcile something with myself.

it is a painful struggle.

but i will make it through.

meanwhile i am trying to think of something to draw.

till then. farewell.


(it will be real soon till we meet again.)

go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. go away. get out of my life.








i dont like it when people mess up my plans just because they cant be bothered. its just a matter of walking more and going earlier to find out.









ANNOYING!

THIS HAS TO BE THE BESTEST WEEK EVER EVER SINCE I CAME BACK.

THANK YOU GOD!

i received a message and it just so awesome how God is working even without me asking!!

but today's baking is not too good.. i over-baked half the batch.. reminds me of how MG's mother turned up the temperature instead of turning it down.. and we got half the cake left.

i remembered how MG told me that her mum was baking.

i spent toooooooooooooooo much money yesterday and i am still regretting it. oh well. it doesnt matter anymore i guess. i pray that God will grant me better stewardship of my money.

ALLYWALLY! i miss ya too! hohohohohohohoohhooohoooho!! be a good girl in school ya!


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ming ghee replied - singaporean style - shes so funny even in her emails.
and in susan's email - she said she got letters for me. i hope we can meet up, friday brunch or sth. must think of a place to makan.

i really thank God for the teachers or rather friends i have made in cambodia. they are making so much effort to help us maintain the link with the students and the school. its awesome. these people are awesome.

i am like - cheating my tuition kid out of games. we had a 10 min break which didnt work out cos the game i brought didnt work. at the end of the lesson, it didnt work out too. so he studied for more than what he should have gotten. plus the fact that i was early and we ended late. i really hope he improves. cos he has some potential, maybe except in chinese la.


this week's awesome cos i know He's in charge. and its amazing how you can be absent but He's always there.

this may/june/july break had been the most awesome i had so far. the absence of school and you. plus the good stuff - the break in cambodia and vietnam, timin's wedding, good weather, the clean room, me not making my mom as angry as before, ...

i saw edgy leo today as i was waitin to cross the road. i heard a low mumbling noise and i thought it sounded familiar. viola. its indeed a friend man!

i am going to have tea with uncle william tomorrow. we got work to do!

SL and myself are having dinner at the kuas, uncle ws hadvery kindly agreed to do a review with us about the trip!

I MUST REMEMBER TO WATCH AND RECORD THE SHOWS THAT I AM SUPPOSED TO WATCH AND RECORD IN SEPTEMBER! I AM REALLY SCARED I WILL FORGET.

SIGH!



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