actually i havent been feeling too well lately. way before i went to cambodia, i got flu and runny nose and it hasnt really recovered yet. its bugging me a fair bit esp before i sleep each night. and something at home is making me itchy. mopiko and tissue are my best friends now.

i am a little moody lately. try to avoid telling me stupid things which i have no answers for. like, do i look good in this? or does school starts on monday for you? or - there are some really mean ones that i would like to say but i would refrain from it to avoid offending people.



i wanna sulk.
unfavourable comments will be deleted forever.
i just need a lot of peace and quiet.
for a week or two.

sigh. i wish i can fall sick now. a little fever wont hurt anyone. i wish for 38degrees. i had wanted to give shuling a call to tell her to send my apologies to josh for not being able to attend his birthday party. all the ra-ra ever since i am back from cambodia is a little too much. the year is coming to an end, i wanna spend some time reflecting upon the year, do the stuff that i had wanted to do. theres some potluck and sleepover, some church dinner that i didnt really want to go, a Christmas party that i know i have to go, and another Christmas thingy that i know i can avoid.

i know why i have so litte friends. sometimes people say stuff that i cannot answer and i dont try. i rather have little friends. school is starting. i am going to avoid coming online and sms.

i am moody.

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doughnut baby

doughnut baby, originally uploaded by shirley_s.

this is doughnut baby. its unavailable because its mine already. hiak hiak. from qiqi. thanks babe!!

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there was 3 things i asked of God during the trip.
1. to have something sweet one of the days - the next day we had toasted bread with condensed milk, palm sugar water and green bean soup. the green bean soup was kinda salty but its kinda sweet too. so it was nice.
2. the second one is kinda personal. but its got answered the next day i asked the question to myself during the 4th devotion we had by aunty k. the answer came in this: ..and greet no one along the road. - Luke 10:4. it was a huge burden off me when we did that devotion.
3. results. i prayed very hard that i do not fail any of my subjects. God blessed me with rather good results. i got a 2 B-, 1 B, 2 B+. not the most excellent, but i am so extremely thankful for that blessing! ben didnt fail me, neither did agnes chang. as usual i would say i would work harder next semester but i think i wont so i dont think i am gonna say it. haha.

i am trying to recall stuff about the trip. lets see prior to the trip, i spent monday cycling, tuesday shopping, wednesday - down in church preparing the booklets for the camp that night, mission training, camp, thursday, collected teeshirts, sent to church, changed money, met a friend, had dinner with mom, then before i went to meet another friend, i had an anxiety attack, i became very nervous about the trip, i started kan-chionging the moment i stepped out of my house all the way to kallang mac where i was meeting my friend. i went home, packed and then the only thing i kanchionged about was the weight of my checkin bag. it was super heavy, with 8 teeshirts for the team, it was a whooping 8 kg.

day1
daddy drove me to the airport. it was the longest ride ever in my whole life and the thing that i wanted so much to avoid. but God gave me the courage and the peace for that ride. reached super early. went walking around the airport. aunty k and uncle hock chuan reached. then aunty leong yee and fiona. uncle kenneth. ben and family. uncle william. aunty georgin. the yen brothers and cousin came late. uncle pakchee was there too. only my parents werent there. but its fine. cos i think i would cry if they were there. checking in and all, we went to get some food, i think i stuffed myself too much. haha. didnt eat on board cos i dont like plane food. i had terrible earache when we were landing in siem reap for our transit. so bad till i thought my ears were going to burst. landing in siem reap was nice. the weather was wonderful. a cool 22 degree c with the sun shining brightly. then onwards to phnom penh. we met up with our translators cum guides, nita and sophy there. they took us to the church - church of Christ our peace first before we headed to the hotel. the hotel was great. then we went for lunch and went back to CCOP. we had beef noodle. we had initially planned to pack stuff for the Christmas celebration but it was all packed. so we went to buy stuff needed for the trip/stay up in takeo and then we practised our skit with our translator, pisay. the adults discussed stuff (i am youth) and we played around a fair bit.. basketball and all. kenneth and i beat shuan and ben. walked around a lot before we settled on a dinner place. we had chicken rice and egg without onion and vegetable and stuff. the boys had a bowl of fishball soup with 3 halves of a small fishball. washed up, had devotion, debrief and we slept. day 1 was a bundle of nerve for kenneth because he had the result of his posting to JC.

day2
girls woke up on time. so did uncle mengwai who joined us at the hotel. the boys overslept. by then, their nickname was sissy boys. i dont know why. we tried to figure out which is worse, sissy boys or heehee girls. i reckon its sissy boys. haha. we had breakfast then hurried down to church. we were so late that aunty meehwa asked the driver mr raj to pick us up. but she insisted we do our own loading of stuff. rev mok sent us off with a word of prayer. picked sophy on the way. hock and visna joined us at the back of the truck. there was so much luggage and stuff that there was hardly space for legs. fell sick half way. regretted not taking the puking bag from the plane. 3h passed slowly. sometimes we were attacked by branches, sometimes the bump was so bad that we almost flew out of the truck. but we all reached takeo safely by the grace of God. reaching there, we looked at the kids, the kids looked at us with a certain degree of doubt, and i guess fear. but they were a joy to be with. we talked a little, the lonely planet book came in very handy. the first person i noticed was nou. he is a smart boy. and true enough, everyone thought he is very smart. shaun, as usual had his eyes on pretty girls. liak. haha. he is uncle william's favourite kid too. cos she is so sweet and pretty. we felt so blessed by the completed church building. we did a bit of cleanup and we fetched water for the bathroom. then we had children ministry lesson. kenneth led this lesson. it was really comfortable as compared to the previous trips. i had the honour of bathing first because i won the orh pay som. me and fiona played with the kids as often as we had time. the adults called it maternal instincts. haha. aunty k taught at night during the adult meeting session. though we spoke in different languages, but worship is the same. it was my first time worshipping with a congregation that spoke a different language. you know God is real there. the people gave out of what they had. we had devotion and debrief. we slept in mosquito nets and all of us regretted not koping pillows from the plane. we did devotion in the dark. something gross to share. i felt like sh***ing the moment i left phnom penh. but i had to overcome that barrier too. haha. eventually i did one of the last days. hahahhahaa.

day3
throughout the entire time, i was cautious of cow dung and big may-kow. may-kow are cows. they are giant. they are as tall as me. had breakfast and fetched water for the bathroom. today is the day where we had the Christmas celebration. it was a happening affair. we gave gifts of 2 french loaves, snacks and sweets to the kiddos there. it was during that time i asked myself how could anyone forsake dignity, sitting amidst cow dung and flies just to receive that litle gift that we could have halfheartedly raised funds for. i felt very troubled and burdened. 1055 children came i think. but it was apparently a meal for them. and what joy one see on the faces of the little ones who received it. it almost made jumping across piles of cow dung not so much of a big deal. the whole day was about the christmas celebration i think. we helped a little in setting up, in cleaning up and playing with the kids. i learnt how to make a leafy man with movable arms. then i was like screaming for help cos so many of the kids wanted one of them and the supply could meet the demand. had the last of the dark devotions. shaun shared his testimony. we went to sleep.

day4
ben and shaun led 2 lessons for vocational bible school. i think by this time the kids and us are quite friendly already. they are really cute and simple. we spent a lot of our free time playing with the kids. i like them alot. they are very cute. haha. though there was a language barrier. i totally dont understand what they were talking about and they dont understand me at all. but the thing is, playing together is just playing together, though i really wished i could speak more in khmer, i did enjoy the moments spent with them. we had a youth fellowship at night. it was really really fun. tia/gia, liked saboing either kenneth or shaun. he asked aunty k to change seat with him so he could sabo kenneth. but he is kind to girls. haha. i had a 4th forfeit which i begged him to do for me, which he did. haha. then we did traditional cambodian dance. i think i did it really badly cos i got laughed at by every one i passed. but it was fun. i thought that was a good way for us to show that we enjoyed their hospitality. i am not a dancing person. but they extended that hand to us and the least i could do is to dance. haha. my teacher is a pretty girl. she is so gorgeous and graceful and she dances so well! then we did this funky thing. haha. took me a while to get it. i brought my waterbottle down with me initially cos i was very thirsty but i left it under the first chair i sat on and forgot all about it. then while we were dancing, i was like, oh no, wheres my waterbottle. then a kiddo came and brought me to her mother or sth, she was holding it for me. i wanted to take it back but she told me that she would hold it for me while i danced. and no, she didnt speak english, but her body language said it all. after everything, i thanked her but we didnt do devotion. benedict got his results for N levels. praise God.

day5
i moped the floor in the morn because it was full of insects. apparently i did a pretty good job because i was praised for me. haha. i went on my knees and cleaned it. i like clean floors. fiona did VBS. my first answered prayer. sweet stuff. made a couple of phone calls and all home to check my results. thanks to my brother. i received my results far away in the village of takeo. i jumped with joy when i got it. i went around getting people to congratulate me. it was definitely a blessing from God. i think we went visiting the harvest fields this day. i finally understood what it means when you say, the harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. the fields are vast. we tried to find k'dam but cant find any. we played with them the day before. the kids tried to scare us with lotsa stuff. the trick is, act confident. we had to wade through a river. it was cold and there was stuff in the river. but just walk la. its kinda fun. saw the harvesting of rice. saw the - what you call it - removing the rice from the stalks - threshing. aunty k and uncle meng wai tried it. but i had injured toes, so i didnt want to pollute the rice. we walked and walked. and we walked on the railway track. it was really cool. you cant walk on railway tracks here i guess. fiona and i held hands to keep our balance. we were actually just walking and falling so visna told us to hold hands. haha. its cute. ah pang, who was actually carried by his bro was carried by nita in the end. he had in his hands 100riel. we teased nita that was his fare for the ride back to the church. we walked and i learnt the chuang qian ming yue guang poem in cantonese. i did so badly that even hock was much better me. haha. as we were walking, we could see the church, but i didnt know where were we. found out we were on the duck trail. where the ducks will go every morn and evening. we had dessert. we had a nap before we left. one of the days we had bak kwa. we played with the kids somemore. then it was my teaching. though i lost in orh pay som, i got to bath first cos i needed to prepare. i wasnt very nervous. even teaching in ye was a bundle of nerves for me. but i was very peaceful. aunty k wanted to pray for me, fiona was like, okay, lets pray. so we prayed. i didnt talk fast at all. i had a good pace. i had short sentences. but i was too short. rev tit hieng prepared another sermon. i had God with me. nita sang before the world began in khmer. aunty k did it in english. both were very nice! we had more games. but the boys were tired so we did debrief before playing. it was fun. i forgot what games we played.

day6
me and fiona prepared french toasts. because i causally mentioned to rev tit hieng we could do that. he asked if we could do it for them and we did. haha. we did visitations. before lunch? after lunch? cant remember. but i enjoyed the visitations. the kiddos were holding hands with us. they just came and grabbed our hands. it was nice. liak came and held my hand. so i boasted to shaun. hahaa. it was funny. and they liked holding hands. when 2 held one of my hands, one of them kinda smacked the other away. we did 2 sessions i think, cos the first i had girls holding my hands, the second was mostly boys. we tried to encourage the new Christians to come to church. pastoral visitation is an eye opener for me. one of the kiddos kept stepping on my slippers. i got so tramatised when i stepped on the ground that i started screaming. its kinda tough for me. i dont even walk on grass in singapore. rev tit hieng, sophy and nita were so comfortable with the locals. they were willing to talk to them and confide in them. i pray for the same kind of confidence they will have in us when we go more often and is more familiar with the language. rev tit hieng is a talented man. he plays the guitar relatively well, he leads worship, he can pray and does intercessions, he does puppet, he is lao shao xian yi, he drives, he preaches, he does BS, he drives a motorbike too. we just walked and presented gifts of candles. i managed to talk to 2 ladies. one of them is a new Christian, she had knee problem. i told her to pray and that God can heal. the 2nd one invited me to sit with her, sophy and nita. she told me about her back problems. we encouraged her to pray. when i was presenting the candles to her, i told her God is Light in english, but nita wanted me to say it in khmer. i understand her heart. it was more sincere that way, even though each time i said it, they dont understand and they have to translate for me again, but i guess the meaning was there. Preah Chee Boonle. we prayed for her too. it was great that nita and sophy was there because it gave more meaning to the prayers we prayed for them. we went to another house and the man of the house took his musical intruments out and played a duet with rev tit hieng. and ya, he plays traditional instruments too! the visit that had most impact on me was the one to sokpeat's grandmother's house. she accepted Christ on the sunday before. i guess sokpeat felt much joy in that knowledge. he hid in the house as we talked to the grandma and when he came out, he was teary eyed. hehee. so sweet. we had another teaching for the youth. this time by aunty k. played around more. was saboed so often. either they liked me or they didnt. hahaha. shaun always get whacked. haha. fell asleep. our last night in takeo.

day7
it was a mad rush of a morn. we had instant noodle for breakfast after packing and all. bidding farewell to the kids was kinda tough. i miss them lots already. but i guess it was simpler for them because teams come and go. ch'ng looked a little disappointed but each time i call him, he breaks into his impish grin. we had high-5 goodbyes. it made it easier. fiona and i taught them high-5s. so we just went high-5ing. a little disappointed cos nou was in school and i really wanted to say bye to him cos he is my first friend. chew's fiona's first friend. but as the truck went past the school, we had a oei kinda sound and we saw nou. i was so glad. everyone was glad. we just screamed byeeeeeeeee and smiled! God is awesome. (: the ride back was easier. we sang songs and all. fiona was sleeping like a cute little baby. we unpacked at CCOP, went back to the hotel, mervyn checked his results. shower and all. went to toulsleng genocide museum. its kinda sad. but we all have a sad history somehow. move on people, with the courage that comes from God. then to killing fields. we attempted shopping here and there. bought a pirated colloquial khmer book from killing fields. went back to the hotel to use the computer. chatted with some folks. so encouraged by the ye campers. those awesome kids! we went for an awesome dinner. wanted to go to mylien pub but someone was smoking so we left. devotion and debrief. before uncle mengwai left to meet his friend, he asked whether we wanted to attend wedding the next day.

day8
last day. i woke up at 6.30. just in time to wash up and attend the wedding. it was so fun! hahaa. but we were seriously underdressed. walked a little then took a taxi back. we took the motorbike taxi. me and fiona shared one. i hung on to my dear life. fiona held on to me. hahah. it was fun with a capital F. haha. we went shopping. bought stuff. and headed to CCOP to meet the guys to go for lunch. lunch was a buffet at a nice hotel. we went back to CCOP for a debrief. went to a Christian bookstore and left for the airport. hock came with us to help us with stuff. mr raj drove us there. bid farewell. and checked in and all. my best buy is the vietnamese hat. but my cell group took it and didnt return ):

prayed so hard that we could make it in time for the Christmas outreach at orchard. but we didnt, but the grace and the presence of the Holy Spirit must have been there because many were touched by the performance.


thats all for the trip. its really kinda long. hahaha.

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today i realised that i like takeo a lot actually! though it may be rather comfortable, its definitely not the kinda comfort that i enjoy and is used to at home. but i like it. hahaa.


tomorrow is Christmas.
hmm.mm.

come to my church and watch the kids dance and act!
you'll receive more than you think you will!

if thats how tim and all the leaders been talking during the camp, no wonder they had been crying at camp.

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too much to say. too tired to say.
lets see if i can reach church by 10am tomorrow morn.
i cant decide when to pluck my wisdom tooth.
todays 24th. 25th's Christmas. 26th's wedding. 29th's josh bday. 30th's church dinner.

lallaa.

GOD IS AWESOME.
one heart. one mission!


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i am dehydrated, tired and i feel weak. but i feel a lot of joy. especially after watching the dance practice today. its so cool. a bit messed up but there was so much joy and cheer flying around! i think its really awesome.

got a lot of stuff undone. but i just want to enjoy the presence of the Lord!

and i am leaving with this:
9And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
10Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. - 2 Cor 12:9-10

the battle's already won.


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goodbye my dear friends, please dont expect me to reply any sms from 16-23 dec. its apparently quite expensive to sms/call there. will save it for my mum. so while you are thinking of me, here are my prayer requests, will really appreciate prayers/helps of any kind - ie. money.
1. the Holy Spirit convicts us of our purpose more strongly as we head for cambodia.
2. the hearts of the people be receptive, both to us and to the gospel.
3. that we might bring much cheer, joy, encouragement to our friends in cambodia.
4. the lesson that i am teaching the youths, may the Lord impact their lives with the words i say
5. the 3 devotions i am preparing, that the group will enjoy both the Word and the fellowship
6. we have fun together as we watch the Lord do awesome stuff in our lives and in takeo!

i take back what i say about sponsering half the expenses of a child/youth's mission trip. i will sponser the entire expenses of the trip if need be. (: i finally understand the lesson we were to learn from the mission trip even before going. its about watching God provide even till the last minute and beyond. its not really how much i received, but how much is given. i am awed. and humbled by this. to think i was feeling a bit bitter at some people's reaction. how upset i was when they couldnt see my heart. but now, i know that its not man i am going to depend on, but God. such precious lesson in a span of weeks.

rev soon delivered a cool sermon today. i never realised that of that passage he did. i always stop at the part where the demons enter the swine and fell off the cliff. little did i know the passage talks about being released from what had possessed us before, then knowing where this freedom comes from, draw near to Jesus, who in turn send us out to witness for His glory. what a cool commissioning passage! we are all to be sent out!

almost didnt want to leave church. wanted to stay over. i had all the stay over stuff - sleeping bag, toothpaste and toothbrush. but had to come home to pack. be going down again. sometimes i think i feel so much more comfortable with the YE peeps than my cell group. the dynamics are different and i am learning to appreciate the differences. its a lot of growing up to do.

i had a fall when i was mopping the floor today in church. eeeeeeewww. so embarassing! hahaha. but i am not hurt and i am thankful. saw aunty jen, told her i would go help her in children min when i am out of the youth min. hahaha. i wish i could spend my day doing these stuff. but school beckons and some responsiblity have to be dropped. aunty kf could give us back our little notes during camp. i forgot what it said on my little note and its so kanchiong-ing. but its kinda cool cos its a year already! ahhh!! whoa, remembered when i called my mum and ended up in streams of tears because i finally told her i was going to church and all. i felt that i was not brave on my own account. i would have chosen to avoid and hide for all it matters. but i didnt. uncle henry asked me if i wanted to go full-time. hmm.mm.. maybe 3rd career then. i would consider teaching as my 2nd career. haha. cos i was a designer once.

so long. i am very sleepy!
haha.

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someday my prince will come..

hmm.. someday my platinum turtle will come and i will buy cartier for minny. haha. meanwhile, i am thankful that i am swinging single now. was just reflecting on relationships. its such a difficult matter to fathom. i rather concentrate on my relationship with Him! wont think about relationships for now, must think of some stuff to think when i cannot sleep in cambodia. wont think the first night will be an easy night to fall asleep, just like in church, fell asleep only at 4plus the last time.

went for lunchie with min at crystal jade today. haha. my first time in the hongkong kitchen. i really think i am fattening myself leh. hahaha. yesterday i had fish&co with khengli after cycling, today i finished virtually everything of the crystal jade we ordered. tomorrow got no time to feast. could order KFC though. hahaha. i wanna eat KFC. we went to the better toy store today. haha. had so much fun there with that woman man!

i have been late for two days in a row because i was chatting on msn. hahhaa. my two fav people to talk to online cos they are so fun to talk to. online or otherwise. ally & the great!

the purpose of today's post is prob to bid farewell for a week. a little nervous and i still dont have my sarong. oh no! hahaha. never mind la. and as a reminder that i would not have teevee next time in my home. and a phone for that matter. no phone, no teevee, no barney, an oven and a jacuzzi tub. hehehe.

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thanks shu!

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i feel that i have yet to wake up today. anyways, yesterday mr and mrs ow's wedding was awesome. wishing them all the bestest in their marriage life. and today is reverend and mrs soon's 39th anniversary, praying that God will keep this couple together doing great things for Him for the longest time possible! i think its kinda cool, to attend a wedding yesterday and learn of a marriage anniversary today, a pity that rongchang and doreen are not here to hear that cos i am sure it will be an encouragement to them for 39 years is a long long time, and i am not even sure will i live that long.

anyways, since its almost the beginning of the year (the Church year: advent), i pledge to pay 50% of a youth/child's expenses on a mission trip if i dont go for one next year. because in the preparation for my trip this coming friday, i have received so much grace from God. first is xuemei who contributed to my trip at the end of the exams, then josh who so graciously gave out of his bonus (i thought he was kidding when he said it cos we were all in a joyous mood and anything goes, but before he left the hotel, he was like, shirley, come, then handed me the money like how my father would give me money), then shu and li en the great also!

i think only when you have seen people giving then you will also learn to give. Jesus gave too. he didnt give money of course, but he fed those who listened to Him didnt He? i've learnt to give from some of the adults in church. the understanding that material wealth is not the most important, that spirit of generousity to God's work, not just in terms of money, but time, effort and everything else. so kids, if aunty shirley is not going for mission trip next year and you need the money, i will pay half the expenses for you. ask and it shall be given. (: i just think its so nice - because i learn to give from a generous God who have given so much. and its Christmas, He has given us His son! and also the boys.. i overslept. i woke up at 1130 when i was supposed to be in church at 10. they didnt even say anything. i always tease them when they come late but they were really gracious today, aunty k too. so understanding!

need to "wake" up and start doing things right from tomorrow! checklist of stuff to do:
1. learn khmer, at least basic greetings and numbers and may God bless you.
2. practise the lesson that i will be teaching the youths and find khmer phrases that i could use
3. prepare devotion. old enough to do it i think.
4. meet meiying and plan recruitment.
5. draw.
6. Christmas stuff. sorry i cant give many gifts this year. will be offering my prayers instead.
7. prepare for the trip (packing, etc).
8. camp booklet. (tue)
9. collect teeshirts.
10. i am sleepy already.

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nites!

i am upset for the silliest of reasons. and i cringe at that thought. i feel that i could do with an entire day of drawing and shooting and lazing around and writing letters to solicit funds (sounds weird), hahaa, but i realised that unless i get a shirt and a pants, i cant. and i need to change the sizes of the teeshirts that i bought today because i think those that i bought are too big. but they are exactly the same size that i bought for my bro the last time. sighs.

i feel like journalling but not in the mood to write. i feel like drawing but i just cant draw something that makes me smile. i want to do stuff that makes me smile like going to raffles place and sit by the not so stinky river and think some stupid things and then go for some icecream or some sort alone. or hang out at the gao xing jian exhibition. but i cant cos i dont know what to wear for rongchang and doreen's wedding. it sounds really bimbotic but i dont want to look the ugliest there. whats wrong with jeans. theres nothing wrong with jeans except that it is inappropriate for a wedding apparently. whats with girls and skirts? i dont have a skirt and i am fine with it. not that i will wear one willingly anway.

was ranting to juan. i was telling her if i should get married, its gonna be by the beach and everyone can come in their berms and shorts and tanktops and sundresses and not care about having to spend money and buy clothes to wear. and her answer was stupid. i am not so concerned as to whether i will get married because its really not a big deal now that i think about it but what am i gonna wear. sigh.

hahaha. it makes me laugh knowing that i get bothered by little stuff like that. i should have went shopping with minny yesterday/today, whatever, 8dec. i am sure she could pick out somehing for me. i really hate the cardigan that i bought but its really too late to do anything because i had it washed already. sob sob. not that i could get a refund. but cardigans are really not my thing.. if you wanna see a human ba-chang (rice dumpling), i will show you the pic if you treat me to that raved resturant featured in 8days. i am just gonna get a shirt i think. i am wearing a teeshirt for the church part. i am sure its fine la. i really got no more money in my bank and i still owe min slightly less than a hundred bucks.

can grey go with brown? actually it does work theoretically but i guess the problem with my clothes is actually the texture. and i hate white shirts because they yellow easily. boo! oh.. i have a blue top! um hmm.. whatever. hahaha. if it works then i could just meet a friend for lunch or something..

anyways, i think ian's getting enlisted today, 9dec. my bro's birthday. haha. to ian - jiayou! praying that the Lord keeps ya safe and in good health. and that you spread the Christlike joy to those elitist people in your batch! haha.
and to my bro - happy birthday la.

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welcome home angelene!

not so sure what time you will reach.. but i reckon you will see this somehow.

had my day planned out.. then when i finalised everything with juan. i realised that i got mission training today. ahahaha. so i am going for lunch with my bro then go for mission training.. and i will attempt to kope postcards today. i threw away my stack. sigh!

i had a very good sleep last night.. not so sure what time i went to bed. but i woke up very well today. times of refreshing!

i think sometimes my prayers are very self centered. it needs to be less of me and more of Him!

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havent blogged for a week or so.. but you didnt miss much.
went on a short trip to batam. think no one really knew except for church peeps. cos we missed service that day. went on the trip with three other awesome people - min, sarah and janice. batam is really nothing to rave about but holiday inn where we stayed was pretty cool. they had this entire group of well-trained service staff which made the entire hols enjoyable. it will be somewhere i will go for a 2days1night sorta thing, hang around the resort and do nothing.

i bought a new toy and because of that, i kinda regretted buying that cardigan and i wont be buying new pants. probably will get 2 teeshirts and the u2 jacket. or wait, i will just borrow something from serene. that will save me some $$ i think. haha.

my new toy is named li-en*. not li en per se, but i gave ms kua the honour of naming my new toy and she insisted on naming it li en. so to make it look a little different, i have the hyphen between li and en. so my new toy is li-en*! hahaha. li en, are you happy with that?! hahaha.

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